Happy Holidays!

for the first time i actually feel so so happy during Christmas... the holidays of 5 days is like a rare holiday we get in clinical school.... i wonder why they are so stingy with holidays... hmmpphh...

anyway, i went to Avanti, Sunway Hotel during Christmas Eve for dinner... Seriously, the service was so so horrible... i think it is due to lack of staffs... we had to wait half and hour just to order our food and wine... gosh...and the dinner took us like 4 hours just to finish the set dinner...

The live band was just okay... but i did had a great time with chris there before i actually got drunk... erggghh!

my alcohol treshold is so low that i probably can't even take any alcohol!!! i drank like only 2 glasses of white wine and i was already drunk...*drunk = vomiting + dizziness + just wanna sleep!

even a bottle of beer will make me drunk!!! i'm such a lousy drinker...

shopping today was super good!!! i bought so so much of things...heee.....daddy is gonna be shocked....since i hardly bought anything last few months when i had depression in clinical school...=P

To all my dear friends,

Happy Holidays!!!

Love!

brown head

for the first time, my hair is exposed to hair dye. =) i just wanted something different this time.

it still looks too brown now.. but the hairstylist told me it'll be darker brown in 2 weeks...i shall wait and see... hee


much love all!

Happy birthday Jamie dear!

its jamie's big day! 14th december.. this time she'll be celebrating with her other half in UK or Paris? hmmpphh....how sweet!

anyway, this is to jamie,

"i'm so so sorry, your birthday card is still in my car. i'm such a hopeless friend. i wanted to send u a card early this month. Due to card stuck at home when i'm in seremban and then forgetting when i went home during the weekend and silly me went to seremban again! luckily this weekend i remembered....erghhh... now its in my car but i'll be having exams soon in 4 days...i'll send as soon as possible okay dear....so sorryy!!!"

love !

i wanna be free

"i feel like i'm tied up in some place that i don't wanna be. i just don't think i belong here. life's so short, why should i waste mine like that?" -- i've been thinking hard, is this the life i want?

i don't know.

i need some answers.

i'm running out of time... the clock is ticking, what have i achieved in life? i can only say...nothing, nothing at all...

fatty?

Staying in Seremban seriously made me put on so much of weight which i didn't even notice. everyone around me keep telling me and teasing me about it. it makes me feel even more cautious about my weight. since young, hardly anyone will tease me for being fat because i was so thin like a stick. My weight has been increasing but NEVER decrease in anytime of my life at all! BUT i wasn't fat till now.

all i can say is, "i feel fat, but i feel hungry even more"

it is actually due to the amount of outside food and fast food i ate all the time in seremban. even though i used to eat KFC every week last time, that was without other fast food or outside food. i've always love home cooked food that is why i'm always eating at home. of course, KFC was an exception. =P

i must lose weight!

I MUST lose weight!

I MUST LOSE WEIGHT!

how can that be possible when my exams are just around the corner? i'll eat without noticing when i'm studying! ergghhh....plus, i've never gone on a DIET before... i need help, i don't have the will power or experience to do that.. Losing weight has never came into my life till today..

i feel fat...a fat fatty girl....

not loved!

a little night out

me, the bf and his family went to PD last weekend just for a short break. I had a great time because i haven't been sleeping so well since long long time. thanks to the alcohol, i slept so much and like a pig. We stayed at guoman beach resort, a very nice and romantic place. =)

but as always, great times end fast...

our big fat feet!

ergghhh i look so short here... bad photography skills!

love.

the BIG ass margarita..

poison rose. the live band was good.

bye bye guoman...

much love all!

twilight

if u haven't watch it, please GO and watch it...you'll never regret it. the movie was just too good to be true... its even better if u are watching it with ur other half... too bad he wasn't there when i watch it... =(

The Best Movie i've watch in year 2008!!

yeah...seriously that good.. and the guy is super good looking... *ahem* even guys like him.. =)

anyway the story is about this vampire who fell in love with a girl...he would do anything to protect her... he claims she is his own brand of heroine.... !!!

so good looking right.....

much love all!

i want to be an animal

Monkeys in Japan are getting a new job....

guess what??

waiter in a restaurant.....

shocked???

what makes me angry is they only work a blardy 2 hours a day!!! and its a law to protect them from over working....ergggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why are doctors job worse than an animal? or even foreign workers that does construction???

this is madness.....

the government should reduce doctor's working time....

how i wish by the time i graduate there's no more on call!!!!
more over, doctor's always make mistake when they are tired...they are humans too....

whatever

it doesn't make sense why life is like that...
some people just love to take from people
not willing to make a sacrifice for their own living...
this makes me sick

if your wallet tells u u can't afford something
it means U CAN'T afford it
find your own ways to get it
not by taking from people

just simply plain lacking of common sense....

Happy Birthday to .....ME! with piggies

This was on 8th November , one day before my official birthday.... we went to souled out.. the cake was good, the company was good, had a great time there... although there are some *funny* moments which i can't mention here, only the piggies knows...=P

They make me wear this super ugly hat that i didn't even take a look at when they put it on my head. i only know it is super ugly...hahhaa....when i saw it on the pictures...i was *Speechless*...

i was kinda tipsy that day, thanks to the port... i can't drink much but i drank 1 full glass that night... my liver wasn't helping me enough!!! ergghhh...

much love all!

mini CEX

just had my small, so called mini exam today. as usual i'm always so so nervous i just think i could have done better. this time was different because the lecturer doesn't scare me or ask me questions that are not found in the book. he is a funny nice man. so i'll have to study more now to make sure i don't disappoint him on the real exam! =) and the best thing is, he is a blogger!! hahaha... anyway will update pictures for my birthday soon.. since i didn't get to do so lately because i was just too lazyy....ergghh.....i've got the lazy syndrome...

love!

birthday gift came early

my precious stone...... the only thing thats makes me happy now....after all the bad things that has happened to me....i hope things will change after my birthday.....for the better...

my only wish

my birthday is just around the corner, yet, i don't feel excited or happy like i USED to... i used to get excited and find the perfect dress for my birthday, places to go for nice dinner with my family... i guess this year is a bit different, my birthday doesn't seem to mean anything to me anymore... am i grown up thats why i don't give a damn? or am i just too disappointed with life??

.........

my only wish for this year is that me and all my friends do well in whatever they are doing...*all the best people*....

with love,

wai teng

bad things always come together

Yesterday, the nightmare was gone, yet i was unhappy..
how does it feel when everyone around you did so well but NOT you? i tried my best, i studied hard, i practice a lot just to be somewhat moderate..
but i guess all the effort i put in just wasn't enough..

sometimes i even doubt myself of being where i am today,
do i belong here? am i doing what i always wanted to do?
i can't even help myself, what more others?

feeling so hopeless and faithless...

i guess its a challenge in life that i have to get over with.. learn from mistakes people told me..

but getting up from a fall isn't as easy as it seems.. it needs a lot of courage and will power, not everyone can...

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rainbows do come by once in a while...but it didn't this time...

Happy Big Day Prof Tee

all these years of friendship, and its your big day today in UK.. i guess its the 2nd time me and sophie didn't celebrate with you...hope you had a great day!!!

hahaha....look at how funny we look last time...so innocent!!!

Just wana wish you a BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY..=P

much love!

for the better or worse

time flies.



i can't seem to have enough time. if time is gold, it could be bought right? but the truth is not as simple as it is. i used to sleep 10 hours a day and now the most i get is 7 hours?? it is a big change for me. i don't know if its a good thing that i'm sleeping lesser because then i'll have more time! the thing is, i can't seem to concentrate well when i'm sleepy. i can't be as energetic as i used to be. everything will move slower. so how is that better? i guess sleeping is really an important part of my life in order for me to function at my very best.



today, something funny happened.. someone lied to me about their condition while i was asking him, in the end he told me the truth because he was scared i would judge him.. but who am i to judge a person.. it was quite a funny incident, due to the conversations... haha.. that kinda made my day... =P

much love all!

HTC touch pro

i finally went to the PDA shop to get my new PDA phone. i've always wanted to get touch diamond, however, when pro came out....ergghhh...its just so nice.... its slightly more expensive though...but nicer to use because of the keypad.. and camera with flash! =P

the cover and the box

the sliding keyboard....wooweee

the back...

muaccks muaccks....i love it....

i'm a happy girl...heee

much love!

common

so what if i'm just a common girl
so what if i like common things that a lot of people have
so what if i don't stand out in the crowd
so what.....

its up to me to want what i want...
so don't criticise me...

its not my fault i don't shine...

a stressful life

yeah yeah..i'm always complaining about the clinical phase yet i'm enjoying part of it. just so contradicting. life haven't been good for me except for the presents that i get from my loved ones! it actually puts a smile on my face. =)

i'm so busy...even on holidays..gosh. there's a thing on my timetable saying mid posting review. i don't even know what the hell it is. its on this coming thursday.

i'm so dead.

the two monkeys stuffed me with the apple when i don't have hands to hold it....

ambiga's new exercising machine. it was really tiring. i did for only 15 minutes and it kills me. it was easier to fix it though. hahaha

much love!

the clinical phase

it has been really tiring for me this first week of clinicals. i'm actually having a really hard time keeping up with everything. there's so much to learn, so much to know, so much they EXPECT us to know, yet so little time. sometimes we don't even have the time to eat. its quite depressing life over there, luckily my house is really nice and comfortable. every time i reach home i feel relieved but of course its nothing like the real home.

there are countless times where i feel ignored, especially by the doctors, seniors are the only people who are helping us out there.. some are really nice, some are stuck up... but i really learnt a LOT there.

there's so much more than learning about a disease there.
i've seen people dying,
people who try to kill themself,
people who struggle to live so that they can have more time with their family,
people who are poor yet trying to pay their medical bills with whatever they have,
people who are sick yet being abandon by their loved ones,
people who accept the disease they have positively....

some people want the life other people have, some people just take things for granted....

i'm glad i learnt more than just medicine there, many times i doubt myself being able to finish my course and be a doctor, but now i know i really WANT to be a doctor....i really want to...its so clear to me now...

much love
xoxo

my space

much love!

off to a small town

seremban, here i come * not in a happy tone*.... everything will be on my own now, even paying bills, cooking or cleaning the house are my responsibilities now... everything seems so different...i have to be be an adult now....i will be going to the hospital everyday seeing life and death, somehow i don't feel like i'm ready, but i wish i am.... anyway here's a small preview of my house... will upload more pics of the house when i shift everything there!! even bibi is going there with me...hahaha....

much love all....will update in a weeek when i'm home!

new hairdo

i just wanted to do something to my hair, actually i wanted to dye my hair but since IMU is so strict about the "no hair colouring" rule, so i decided to curl instead.. i went to this new place called the hair room with jo...her friend recommended her to try out this place... the curls were okay for me but somehow i wish i had a sharp chin instead of a fat round chubby face...i don't look nice in most of my hairstyles because of the fat face! grr! whatever la..the curls only gonna last for 4 months anyway..so even if it doesn't really suit me its just for 4 months....

the hairstylist who did my hair was quite good looking thats why the other gay hairstaylist keep flirting with him...which was so so funny....i love gay people! they are just so cute! they are not shy or embarrass to show their feelings and they are really funny!

anyway, i took a syok sendiri photo here just to show u all my new hairstyle... hahaha

IMU Convocation

i've officially completed my phase I medical programme in IMU! i was so worried and had trouble sleeping the night before. thats because they don't announce who will be in the dean's list till the graduation day itself. so i was kinda scared that my name won't be there... but all the worries went off when i saw my friend in the morning because IMU advertise it on The Star and also New straits Times.. i was so happy!! at last my dream to be on the dean's list came through... i actually gave up halfway through sem 5 to work hard for the dean's list, luckily my friend ambiga keep encouraging me... i really won't be on the list if its not for her, she really helped me out a lot in sem 4 and 5 in my studies... and guess what, she's just a place away from the gold medalist!! means she's 2nd out of 171 students in my batch. i'm just so proud of her!

overall, the convocation was a success but there were just too many many people everywhere!! my sister recorded the video where i go up and take my scroll but the boyfriend took all blur pictures of me !! he forgot to on the flash...=~( luckily still got video....at least not so bad.....

we weren't exactly the spotlight there that day since we are only completing phase I compare to the rest who have completed the whole course... only 2 peoplegot into dean's list for phase II!! gosh, life's definately won't be easy there! i really regret i didn't study at ALL during the holidays.. i'm so deaddd....i know a lot of them did a lot of revision....please save me....i just don't have the will power to drag my lazy ass to study during my only 1 week of holidays left! i think i'll tear on monday when my holidays finally come to an end...





i love the book so much, gold and silver makes it looks so classy. at least IMU did a good job here!

Group photo just before we go to the ballroom

the monkeys that i have to sit with the whole time!! i was the only girl there....poor me!

my family and i!

the boyfriend

ambiga and i posing with our dean's list cert....haha...! we just have to do it!! its all our sweat, blood and tears!wahahah

mine!! all MINE!!! heeeee

my outfit for the convocation... i loved it, but some people say i look like a lawyer instead...whatever, i like my style of dressing...who cares!

anyway, new house in seremban is readY! will blog about it soon after we furnish it! =) can't wait to show off my new home...hahaha...its not very nice la...but its clean and new though....and i'm so happy about it....

much love alll!