the reality

these days, i keep trying to forget that my uni will start soon. its not because i'm lazy or whatever. i just think i might not be able to cope with the stress. i was so stressed up last semester that i felt i nearly gave up. lucky me ,i didn't. some people just don't have to study a lot and they can do much better than me. i'm not jealous. i just feel unappreciated. for all the work and effort i put in just to do well can be done easily by other people who put in half of what i did. some people ask me "why are u so hardworking?" the answer is "i'm NOT smart , thats why". i still haven't finish my elective report till now. so little left yet i'm trying to runaway from it. i know after i complete it i have to go back to the usual stressful, tiring, killing me slowly life. i didn't even clear the mess on my table after semester 3 exam. till NOW! i keep telling myself i should clean it up for the new sem. i just can't. its not really something that i'm looking forward to.

i don't know why i'm so emotional these days. maybe because i know i won't be that free for my friends anymore when uni starts. i know i won't have much time to have fun and just laze around in the house. and my dad will be happy to see the credit card bill as it would be reduced tremendously. during the 5 weeks study break.. i didn't even go for shopping at ALL! credit card bill was O! no matter how busy i was in A levels, i will still go shopping. sometimes i really doubt if i have the ability to complete my medical degree. do i really have the energy physically and mentally to continue? i'm so reluctant to go to uni.

the trips i went to had been almost perfect. i know i'll miss those days. it might be my source of energy when i'm super stressed up. had a blast in singapore. i just love my angels so much. thanks for making the singapore trip so GOOD! will write about it soon.

i wanna cry but i can't.
time flies but i can't stop it.

my fave emo song lately. rihanna - cry.

My mind is gone
I’m spinnin’ around
And deep inside
My tears I’ll drown
I’m losing grip
What’s happening?
I stray from loveThis is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And they cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I’m in this condition
And I’ve got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you’ll never see me cry

Penang

i'm starting to think that penang is where i wanna spend my retired life there. its a town with shopping malls, good food, highlands and beach at the same time! and they have the best hospitals there too! where i can still work if i want to. i lurrvee the food there. it can be simple food but with super duper great taste. * which can never be found in KL*. i went to penang last two days to celebrate chris mother's birthday. we stayed in parkroyal hotel which is so niceee! wanted to stay at rasa sayang but they are having some government function there so its fully booked! anyway,parkroyl is just as good.. when we arrive there, we went to the coffee house to have buffet lunch. the food was fantastic and i ate like a pig! *there goes the fats into me* then, after that we went back to the room and rest for a while before we go to the beach. the beach was filled with people there! especially arabians. they have a lot of water sports there and its not cheap okaY! i went for parasailinG! i can't believe it myself also. i'm so afraid of heights but i went up! don't remember what made me so brave to go up there though. its freaking RM 50 per person for only like 5 minutes!! i think those people there can make thousands of ringgit a daY! but i think its worth the experience.. very fun.. *flying* hahaha. then i went for horse riding which cost rm30 for 10 minutes! crazy right. i think they are charging so expensive because its school holiday week. and again i'm so black now.. like charcoal. After that we went to eden seafood village for dinner. after dinner i went and buy DVDs along batu ferringhi . however, everything is closed because our prime minister is there. then i went to gurney drive for food again.the best is "chicken skin"super nice but fattening..but i don't care..its so delicious! and lucky me..there are 2 dvd stalls there.but they sell rm 5 for one..along batu ferringhi is rm4 for one. but i still bought a lot of shows. hahaha.. i even brought the portable dvd player there to check if the dvd is clear! haha.. very pro right. =P the next morning, we went for the hotel'sbuffet breakfast. SO MUCH of FOODDD!!!!! i ate like a super fat pig again.. what to do...i just can't resist the temptation.. after the late breakfast, we check out and left for KL. stopped at ipoh for the best "hor fun" ever!!yum yummmm...haha

Kher-yin's 21st Birthday

First,just wanna say happy belated birthday girLL! i wanted to post this long time ago just that my comp got some freaking weird problem that i can't log on to my blog. as usual, the four of us went out to celebrate for her. we went to california pizza kitchen in KLCC for dinner. the dinner was fun because my darlings was there.however,i find the food not that impressive. the only thing nice there is the pasta. all i can taste from the pizza is bread and vege! but they way they describe it on the menu, will not be what u get! We bought her a nice nice perlini's silver bracelet! hahaha...i chose it thats why i think its nice! i always feel happy and glad that i have my great darlings ; kher-yin, jamie and nicky! lurrvee them! can't wait to go singapore with u all..just 2 days away and we'll be having fun there! muackks!

lil' surprise

i lurvee surprises. it just makes me so happy no matter how my day went. i was in one u with chris on wednesday to watch rush hour 3. its a good show to laugh! *jen-li should watch this*! haha.. after the show, we were in u parkson. then i saw this fluffy thing. haha...what else would i be so excited to see right?*pooh bear* it was a new one!!! so cute and fat and round!! hahaha.. i wanted to buy but i thought i should go to world of cartoon and get it instead because i just wanna give myself an excuse to buy more stuffs there! so i didn't buy it. 4 different sizes. the super small one, small, medium (which is the nicest) and big ( not so nice...the face looks ugly) teehee!~ then we just went for shopping for a while before we go home. when i was in topshop, Chris suddenly tells me he is having a stomachache and he needs to go to the toilet badly. So he ask me to shop around while waiting for him. hahaha.then he meet me upafter that and walk to the car to go home.i felt so bad as i was saying something bad about him...something i can't remember now.. then when i open the car door, AHHHH...the pooh bear i wanted... it was sitting on my seat! just one second i stopped and i thought i was dreaming that it was there..BUT IT REALLY was there! teehee!~ So hapPPYY!! haha...i know... *old school way* but i lurrveee IT! who cares if its an old trick... hahahaha...

Seremban

i used to think seremban is a super small town with no food no shopping. however, after staying one week there, i kinda miss that place. everything is so near to everywhere. and the best thing is there's no traffic jam. so good! the food was so gooD...maybe because my friend she knows where to bring us to eat. i lurrvee the food. hahaha. we stayed at her grandmother's house which was a very big house. nice rooms too. here are some pictures we took.not much though. because most of the time we are in the hospital and other than that just go for dinner thats all.

Me and patrick

he came all the way to watch movie with me at jaya jusco 2. but the show was NOTnice ....don't watch flash point!! i duno whats the point of the show also..

Hospital Attachment

Last week, i went to seremban hospital for attachment for a week. I really think it was a good exposure for me.Most of my batchmates went for attachment even before they enter university. For me, this is my second year and this is my first time. I learnt a lot about medical stuffs and also what they call "hospital politics". i realise that there are so many different types of doctors there.

On my first day, i was a the emergency department where there was this guy from macau that has this serious head injury because he is a cyclist and he had an accident while practicing. He don't understand what those malay doctors and nurses was trying to ask him. and sohappen i was the only chinese there. we were actually there to observe only.However, the doctor asked me to translate for him. i was very happy that i can help out, but the way the doctor ask me was as if scolding me. whatever. arrogant bastards. The best thing is, the doctor ask me to ask the macau guy was he unconcious after the fall. so i just translate and ask him. the guy answer me back that he don't really remember and that he THINK he was unconcious for while. so i translate it exactly back for that doctor and he started scolding me instead!!! he say " what u mean by U THINK! WAS he unconcious or not???" what the heLL! how ami suppose to know... thats what he say so thats what i translate for u la. DUMBASS! don't understand english then don't talk so mUCH! damN! i seriously think he should go for english classes instead of working. the next thing he ask me to ask was how did the macau guy fell. the macau guy told me that he hit a curb accidentally and fell front and hit his head. i told the doctor that and guess what??EVERYONE THERE (except me and my friends) know whats a curB! OMG! And He scoldedme again..."apa tu curb??curb???apa tu???" is he MAD or DUMB>???? then the macau guy's friend, a japanese wanted to take something for his friend to vomit on because they ask for a thing to vomit in since like 10 minutes ago and the nurses didn't do anything! then the RUDE dumb doctor scolded the jap guy " are u the doctor??huh??are u the doctor??NO ?NO?then please get out". See, he was even so rude to the foreigners. i wonder what they'llthink of malaysian doctors. haih...

Then again.. another nurse who thinks she is so SUPERIOR.. there was think guy who broke his leg and it was an open wound . the tibia bone was sticking out. She scolded us "cepat pakai gloves dan tolong la...jangan berdiri sana". come on, we are only sem 3 going to sem 4 medical students. we are not suppose to help because if anything goes wrong to the guy, the blame will be on us instead!! but i wasn't that angry at her though..because she probably thought that we are some sem8 or 9 students who was suppose to help out there. whatever.

Simple education does makes a difference. i realise this while i was in the emergency department on my last day. there was this foreign worker who accidentally got his finger all chopped off. His friend who wanted to save him went and put all that guy's fingers into the ice directly. i know a lot of peoplewill do that. BUT that will KILL his fingers instead of saving it! if u put directly into the ice , the temperature is so low that the cells are dead. the right way is actually to put the fingers into a plastic bag and seal it then only put into the ice container. see...just a simply thing would have save his fingers. just a small mistake.

then i saw a doctor who perform a chest tube on a guy who was just had an accident. firstlyshe put some LA so that he don't feel any pain. however,the amount was so little and she didn'tput everywhere around the place she was gonna cut. when she cut at the place she put the LA,nothing happen, however, she couldn't find the right place to insert the chest tube. Then she cut higher up where there's no LA!! then man was totally screaming in pain!!!imagine someone cutting into your chest. bad experience.i couldn't breathe when i saw it. it was the worse thing i've ever seen.the way the man was screaming in pain makes my lungs so tight that i couldn't breathe. my other friend felt like puking. Its not that we are scared of the procedure, we've seen so many prcedures done. nothing has ever happen to us. BUT none of them was screaming in pain which was so terrible and the doctor just continue to put her finger IN! madness.

okay...enough of bad stuffs. now its the good ones.haha. i saw a post mortem on a guy who was dead 5 days ago.the doctor was so nice , he taught us a lot! then we also saw bout 3 or 4 natural births. SO painful. i think i'll got for surgery instead. hahaha. but the way i saw the mother's faces when they look at the baby after that...really makes my day!! the joy that they felt filled the room with so much of loVEE! feels so gooD! thats the only place i love in the hospital. then we also saw 2 eye surgeries, a C-section! whooaaaa...hhahahaha.....super HIGH after seeing those. SO happy... i even saw endoscopy and colonoscopy procedures. the scope was freaking cool. like playing some video game! hahaha! even saw an echocardiogram. We also went and talk to patients about their conditions. its so different talking to a real patient compare to the fake patient that IMU always use to train our communication skills with.

it was a real good experience for me! =)

.random.

baby kaitlyn is here!!! she's so so cute... only 4 months old...my cousin's baby...so AGAIN i'm another person's "aunty"! darnn old right! haha... her cheeks is so so cute!! eeekkk....wannna pincH! haha

see so cuteee! she has chubby cheeks and fat fat ears like me! haha

ouuhh..and i cut my hair again...like usual...every 2 months once....didn't change the sytle... haven't found something new that i wanna try.... although i would love to have short shoulder length hair...but it'll make my round face biGGER!....so...forget it! haha

in my purple room

just something i did when a was bored at home....i'm just LAme when i'm bored!

this was before the hair cut..

went to bangsar today and bought a sunglasses!! woohooO! haha....its spuer nice...i personally thinks its very nice nice nice!!!...its not easy for me to get one because my face just don't seem to suit sunglasses....after a long search...i found iT!

BUT.....

its super EXPENSIVE kaYY! more expensive than gucci or dior which i was choosing froM! DAMN!

its just a COACH sunglasses....but it seems that it was imported from japan...its specially made to fit asians. those gucci and dior are made in italy...so its more for their people... AND because its made IN JAPAN, therefore its more expensive... but i still bought it though...its better to buy something you like than something cheap but don't suit you right...i still think my choice is right!... and the casing IS damn freaking NICE!!the shop that i bought it from is the only shop that sells coach sunglasses other than the coach shop itself... anyway that shop sells a lot of different sunglasses and they sell it cheaper than anywhere else...thats because they take in so MANY! when u enter the shop, you'll feel lost...but the workers there are quite good....they'll help you out A LOT! its on telawi 3....you'll know the shop when you passby because "no matter what time fo the day, what day it is, there'll be so many people inside"!!!

the super cool casing! haha....lurrve it

MINE! haha

got bling blings at the side...haha....

will be away for a week! going to seremban then tioman! =) i'll be back BLACK!

Spider PIG!!

hahaha...watch what homer do to the pIG!! super funny!! its a MUST WATCH movie! it makes you laugh till you drop! haha..REMEMBER! watch it! *muacckss*