the clinical phase

it has been really tiring for me this first week of clinicals. i'm actually having a really hard time keeping up with everything. there's so much to learn, so much to know, so much they EXPECT us to know, yet so little time. sometimes we don't even have the time to eat. its quite depressing life over there, luckily my house is really nice and comfortable. every time i reach home i feel relieved but of course its nothing like the real home.

there are countless times where i feel ignored, especially by the doctors, seniors are the only people who are helping us out there.. some are really nice, some are stuck up... but i really learnt a LOT there.

there's so much more than learning about a disease there.
i've seen people dying,
people who try to kill themself,
people who struggle to live so that they can have more time with their family,
people who are poor yet trying to pay their medical bills with whatever they have,
people who are sick yet being abandon by their loved ones,
people who accept the disease they have positively....

some people want the life other people have, some people just take things for granted....

i'm glad i learnt more than just medicine there, many times i doubt myself being able to finish my course and be a doctor, but now i know i really WANT to be a doctor....i really want to...its so clear to me now...

much love
xoxo

my space

much love!