what happened to us?

are we really living in two different worlds?

we dont even understand each other anymore..

HIV

i've been seeing a few HIV patients lately due to my research.

the first patient was a lady who got infected by her husband who was a drug user. she cried to me, telling me her stories of her life. i was so affected even till now.. she said "I love him, I dont regret that I chose the man I love to be my husband"... that is how strong love can be...

the second patient, a young man who was really young, didn't seem to affect his life, he was a university graduate and now working as a manager. patients infected with HIV do deserve a normal life too. They are no different from us from the outside. a pleasant young man...

the third patient, a technician who speaks very good english. he is a prisoner. the reason for being in prison : taking heroin to increase his appetite after infected with HIV. how true is it, i dont know..

the fourth patient, an old man who lives alone now because his wife infected him with HIV and passed away.. he is all alone..

and many more...

they dont dare to tell people they have HIV not even their relatives or close friends. why? that is because there are so many shallow people around who doesn't know about HIV. most of them dont get good support from their friends and family.. many of them got abandon by their own close families. isn't HIV like any other infective disease like Tuberculosis which is even more infective? why do people discriminate them when they are the ones dying in the most suffering way? some of them are innocent.. they do deserve support from the society..

sigh

it has been a very hectic week. i've been only sleeping like 6 hours a day? i'm so exhausted. i really need a break after sem 7 exams. i'll be going to taiwan! yay!TAIWAN here i come...wait for me.... and nicky, i want to go to Perth! hopefully i saved enough money to go!! hope you can accomodate me..heee...Kher-yin u are too faraway, i dont think i can survive the flight there.. hahaha... once i've been to LA, i nearly died.hahaha... my airsickness is restricting my holidays...erghhh.. so many places i wanna go! i wanna go to a beach like Krabi or Phuket... i wanna go hong kong too but i've been there before =P

hopefully the bf decided to spend me another holiday, that cost a lot of money and his working time which is so important to him..=P probably not this year, the Bali trip did make him bleed because we spent so much on good food....

Kris Allen's No Boundaries is sticking in my head currently. he is kinda addictive. hmpphh... but ADAM is still the best of the best!

i owe my mummy a lot.. she has done so much for me.... every morning when i go to seremban she'll wake up and make sure my "kakak" put everything into my car for me... comes with me to seremban just to teman me because i was alone on sunday night, make soup for me... aiihh... i feel so guilty... what have i done for my mum??? nothing actually...except treating her on her birthday and mother's day... i'm so useless...

Taken on Mother's Day in Leonardo's, Bangsar...

okay...time to complete my work...its pilling up..."as high as the mountain , so many boundaries between me and my dreams!" =P

life's not good

i have to go on call this friday when everyone packs their bags and go home in the morning/afternoon! erggh..life can't be any worse when on the same week, sunday i have to go back for weekend call!

at least i passed the clinical exam that i was so scared of and the two MCQ papers which i did so badly but i pass! haaa... but bad news is obstetrics is so tiring and difficult. i feel so lost! everyone seems to know everything and i'm the only LOST one.. not only that, as always i'm so unlucky and i got to be the "victim" of the HOD.... hmmpphh....he is just so weird, the things he do and says.... its so not like a HOD.

i only got to watch american idol during the weekends because there's no time to watch in during the live performance! how sad right. anwya luckily i didnt watch it live or i'll be too angry because adam didnt win. just because he is gay... whats wrong by being gay!!? erghhh....but kris allen did sang the winning song better than adam...the last scene of the finals was so touching when he hugged his wife after singing the winning song... hmmpphh...

MIA

i guess i will MIA for 5 weeks since its obs posting. have to cover ward! so sad right!
so many pics to upload but i'm too lazy. i should study now actually but the laziness is more than my will power to study...
i hoe i love obs. i think its fun but hopefully i wont change my mind after the posting! =P

American Idol FInals!

I hated Danny Gokey and he is OUT!! yeah man...OUT!!!!!!

Of course, Adam Lambert will WIN the title unless the americans thinks gay shouldn't win the competition. So what if he is gay, at least he doesn't come out with some sad and tearful story just to get people's sympathy! He rawks every single song he does! With his looks and power voice, i'm sure he'll make it in the music industry sincethe "whole package" thing is so important to sell albums. He can practically do any type of songs he wants! how many of them can do so? I think he deserves the title! songs like "mad world" or "tracks of my tears" by Adam is just so WOW! who the hell knows those songs till he sang it! he kinda reminds me of David Cook doing "billy jean" or "hello"!




Kris Allen, my second favourite, he looks like the plain guy but his voice is really nice too. he is not that predictable, he is fun, but compare to Adam Lambert... hmmpphh...He doesn't seem to convince anyone he can win him. But we will never know! he might just surprise us with something he comes out with! i love his version of "heartless" and "ain't no sunshine".


Lastly, the one that got kicked out! Danny Gokey! he doesn't even deserve 3rd place. i think Alison deserve it more! anyway still im happy he is not in the finals. i hate it when people comes with a sad story, act so into christianity just to get votes. if u are a true christian, u dont have to show it so much. you are what you are! his songs are so predictable. always slow at the start then shouting at the mid part till end. he doesn't have much excitement! just plain boring. luckily we wont be seeing him anymore! YAY! plus his looks is "cannot make it!" he can never survive in the music world! shoo shoo!

i just can't help it, i have to draw him a bit! hahahahahhahaa...i know i'm evil!

"seremban-less" week!

i've got one week at home! a very short break after 2 postings in semester 7 yet, the big ass exam is coming soon. it pressures me to study yet i can't get myself to sit still and study. i'm so gonna regret for not studying and end up blaming myself for this! ergghh...please give me the strength / will power to take the book up and read it!

anyway, i love my home so much. my bed feels so comfortable and nice, my dogs are so amusing, my mum always nags but she loves me, my pooh bears looks so cute, my cupboard looks so FULL of clothes till it'll burst... hahaha...

being home is just too good to be true. always pampered by everyone.

this is the real chicken essence made by my mummy dearest! the whole chicken had to be wasted just to get such small bowl of soup!

enjoying every bit of it!!!

the wasted chicken!

flowers by the bf. when we were eating in PJ, some people just came up to everyone and was selling flowers! so he bought for me. hmmphh. it goes to the toilet again!

and doughnuts too! hee... the bf bought it for me after my exams! however, i think these doughnuts are not as nice as those i've tasted overseas. the dough is a bit hard, not as soft as it was suppose to be... =( a BIG disappointment.

i love shopping spreee!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is just so stress-relieving!!!!!!!! i actually bought all these stuffs from midvalley.. i usually dont get much stuffs from there but... its just the shopping luck day i guess! =P

tomorrow is ferragamo pre-SALE day! KLCC here i come!!!!!

i LOVE MY HOME!!

facebook EEG for the microcephaly me!

they can read whats on my mind!!! isn't that EEG! my microcephaly brain can think so much at a time? incredible!

depression

i feel so stupid...
i dont think i pass my exam today..
i hate it... i dont wanna fail!
i was so hardworking for peads! erggghhh
i hope he pass me...
but...
he told the rest they passed but he didnt tell me...
=....(
i guess its bad news afterall... hmmpphhh

*emo*

the driver

this is the second time i drove the alphard, my dad's new toy... i get to reverse park it in the shopping mall... power eh! hahahaha...

i'm stressed up... forgive me....

i hope i dont fail paeds! please... i'm trying to study yet its just so difficult to enter my brain! i think i have microcephaly....=(