busy holidays

my dear holidays, you've come and gone so fast. everyday i have so much to do till i've got no time to even sit down and relax watching tv.
how come?? i've never imagine my holidays like that. i was going up and down for my Selectives ; vaccinations, blood test, CV, airtickets. it sounds like nothing much but i had so much of problem getting it done. then i had to buy a new computer, a new computer table...blablabla...

i officially hate vaccinations. first, i took a Hepatitis B jab on my left arm. it hurts like hell. i MEAN HELL. i was still able to move my arms like usual but it hurts till now. anyway, the second one was the bomb. Meningitis C! ergHH! it doesn't hurt much at first but after a few hours, you'll feel feverish then there will be reduced range of shoulder movement till 0! its something like frozen shoulder. gosh. i cant even lift my hand up till 90 degrees.

blood test. thanks to all the KFCs, hmpph... i guess its predictable that my LDL will be raised. on the bright side, my HDL was high too. =) hahaha..

so much to do, so little time!

tomorrow, i'll be helping Chris to shift to his new house in kemuning then one whole day is gone. i haven't even started packing for taiwan on Sunday yet. gosh.i can't wait for taiwan, then going to London !! woohoo... but only for 3 weeks =( cz Chris cant stay longer and my posting is for 3 weeks. so i practically can't travel around at all. but the bf keep telling me, " i'll bring you back here one day then we can travel all around Europe". i shall believe him first although i don't think it'll happen. =(

taiwan taiwan taiwan taiwannnnn... with my darlings... except one who can't make it... =(

updates after Taiwan!

much love all.

i've passed my exams! i'll be going to Semester 8!!!!!! yay!

there! the hair is back to the usual colour! no more brown head!

much love all

the little one

i liked you so much when i first saw you. back then you were so small, shy and cute.

then you've changed to hyperactive and became a destroyer. you chew on my nine west heels that i loved. i wanted to whack you but i didn't. from then on, i never leave my shoes near you, not even those cheap ones.

you started to jump on me everytime you see me or when i'm eating at the dining table. you know who to bully ey.

i always hide from you because you scratch my legs when you jump on me.

you went missing for a while. he was so worried, went around looking for you. you survived outside yourself for more than a week. you were alive.

now, someone decided to take your precious life away just after 1 1/2 years.

the person who poisoned you WILL go to hell. i am very sure of that.

he was so sad when you lie so still there without any movement at all. when i came, you were already covered in your favourite white towel.

i couldn't believe it. i wish i was there to say goodbye. i dont even remember the last time i saw you.

carrying youto put you in the deep hole really hurts. slowly the sand covers you tightly. we won't have the chance to call your name anymore. you will be missed.

i hope you rest in peace.

for the next few days there will be a lot of THIS kinda "stories" on my blog, how i hate exams, how i hate IMU, how i hate that i'm not smart....

i'm finally back at subang, there are so many things to do :
1. cut and dye my hair
2. shopping for autumn type of jackets
3. meeting VIVIAN LEE! hahaha...miss you girl!
4. scare my boyfriend because he doesn't know that i'm back in Subang
5. watch all the TVB dramas i wanted to watch
6. plan my trip to taiwan, gosh, we dont even have any plans yet.

its so good to be home....the smell of home feels good....

dad is getting a new s! ergghh everytime buy for himself, he just bought a new car like 3 months ago??? one person with 2 cars....iskkkhh... as if he can drive both... hmmPH! he never wanted to get any of us nice cars because he thinks we should work hard and buy our own...like what he does... hmmpph!!! i'm not even working yet!

how was exams?

i' m sure you did well

you sure pass one

nothing to worry about

erghhh....everyone keeps saying that, i feel like vomiting thinking of the exam itself. exams finally came to an end today at 4pm.

the first paper SAQ, i did so badly which was pretty easy for everyone else i guess.. so many things i know yet i make silly mistakes. my brain usually dont function on exam days.

the second paper was OSPE, even better.. medical school is so fun. we have to practically jump from one seat to another every 5 minutes. how cute. little sheeps getting into their place while the examiner make sures we dont miss any. 5 minutes and there will be a fire alarm thingy coming out. it probably gives you the adrenaline rush or something. i dont even see the point of OSPE.

the third part of the exam was OSCE where they actually test your clinical skills. but why why why why OBESITY??? gosh. i hate that station. i thought i did okay after my first station because when i open the door it was Mr Paul, a very nice surgeon who gives good marks. as i go into more rooms, my confidence level starts to decrease because someone decided to shout at every student. blardy hell. the next day, a baby with heart disease, luckily i was lucky enough to get the diagnosis.. then ortho case, KNEE, i was so happy i did everything but i found nothing but scars, muscle wasting and crepitus.. the crepitus i felt was the same as those undergone total knee replacement. WTH. and the examiner insist the patient has pain in the knee.. i ask the patient and the patient insisted he have NO PAIN AT ALL! hmmpphh....whatever!

now all i have to do is WAIT... wait for friday to see if i make it to semester 8. why did i even end up here? i always ask myself that and i just cant find the answer.

gonna get a haircut tomorrow, stupid bushy dry rotten hair... erghh the sight of you piss me off...

i think i have PMS.

exam crisis

only 3 days away from the start of my finals for sem 7 and i feel like i dont know anything.

how??! i'm so dead. havent been studying like how i did in bukit jalil. i dont even know what to study. no guide line, no specific thing to study. anything / everything might come out. i don't even know how to study anymore.

how?!

panic panic panic.

i wish life is an alarm, when u pull the panic button, people will come to the rescue.

i was suppose to study everything by tomorrow as planned.

plan FAILED.

i'm not even confident to do the exam anymore.

obstetrics results are out, 3 people passed with a C, others fail??? what could be worse?? psychiatry is no better. i'm gonna take my results only after my last OSCE exam on 18th aug. gosh. and they say internal exams helps us to pass our finals!

BULLSHIT!

end of complaining.

back to some good news.

firstly, my tod's bag has arrived. thanks prof tee. you are the best! will post pictures of it soon.

secondly, my dad's project new launching went very well. visit http://www.beverlyheights.com.my/ its phase 5. if you are interested, please tell me then i'll get the commision from my dad! hahaha....anyway, there's only less than 10 units left after the launch last weekend.

hopefully the next post will be good news too. i just wanna pass... =(

much love!