common

so what if i'm just a common girl
so what if i like common things that a lot of people have
so what if i don't stand out in the crowd
so what.....

its up to me to want what i want...
so don't criticise me...

its not my fault i don't shine...

a stressful life

yeah yeah..i'm always complaining about the clinical phase yet i'm enjoying part of it. just so contradicting. life haven't been good for me except for the presents that i get from my loved ones! it actually puts a smile on my face. =)

i'm so busy...even on holidays..gosh. there's a thing on my timetable saying mid posting review. i don't even know what the hell it is. its on this coming thursday.

i'm so dead.

the two monkeys stuffed me with the apple when i don't have hands to hold it....

ambiga's new exercising machine. it was really tiring. i did for only 15 minutes and it kills me. it was easier to fix it though. hahaha

much love!

the clinical phase

it has been really tiring for me this first week of clinicals. i'm actually having a really hard time keeping up with everything. there's so much to learn, so much to know, so much they EXPECT us to know, yet so little time. sometimes we don't even have the time to eat. its quite depressing life over there, luckily my house is really nice and comfortable. every time i reach home i feel relieved but of course its nothing like the real home.

there are countless times where i feel ignored, especially by the doctors, seniors are the only people who are helping us out there.. some are really nice, some are stuck up... but i really learnt a LOT there.

there's so much more than learning about a disease there.
i've seen people dying,
people who try to kill themself,
people who struggle to live so that they can have more time with their family,
people who are poor yet trying to pay their medical bills with whatever they have,
people who are sick yet being abandon by their loved ones,
people who accept the disease they have positively....

some people want the life other people have, some people just take things for granted....

i'm glad i learnt more than just medicine there, many times i doubt myself being able to finish my course and be a doctor, but now i know i really WANT to be a doctor....i really want to...its so clear to me now...

much love
xoxo

my space

much love!

off to a small town

seremban, here i come * not in a happy tone*.... everything will be on my own now, even paying bills, cooking or cleaning the house are my responsibilities now... everything seems so different...i have to be be an adult now....i will be going to the hospital everyday seeing life and death, somehow i don't feel like i'm ready, but i wish i am.... anyway here's a small preview of my house... will upload more pics of the house when i shift everything there!! even bibi is going there with me...hahaha....

much love all....will update in a weeek when i'm home!

new hairdo

i just wanted to do something to my hair, actually i wanted to dye my hair but since IMU is so strict about the "no hair colouring" rule, so i decided to curl instead.. i went to this new place called the hair room with jo...her friend recommended her to try out this place... the curls were okay for me but somehow i wish i had a sharp chin instead of a fat round chubby face...i don't look nice in most of my hairstyles because of the fat face! grr! whatever la..the curls only gonna last for 4 months anyway..so even if it doesn't really suit me its just for 4 months....

the hairstylist who did my hair was quite good looking thats why the other gay hairstaylist keep flirting with him...which was so so funny....i love gay people! they are just so cute! they are not shy or embarrass to show their feelings and they are really funny!

anyway, i took a syok sendiri photo here just to show u all my new hairstyle... hahaha