.live the dream.

korean!

2010-03-26T01:47:00.013+08:00

SNSD, girls generation was introduced to me by Jamie! i just watched their videos and omg, they are so so hot/cute. i've always like korean guys and girls but this group of girls are really good loooking and the videos are good too. i didnt like super juniors the guys version of this many many people in a group kinda thing. i think its a new style because good singers are getting lesser therefore more people have to be in a group or is it because they are trying to be different? im not sure but i like them as far as i'm concerned.

from the prettiest to the least prettiest which is still very pretty....omg.. i feel old and ugly.. all of them are around 20 only!

super hot right all of them...!hmmpphh...their hair colour makes me wanna dye my hair again which i dont think i should since i'm in sem 9, impression is really important....sigghh

2010-03-24T20:39:00.002+08:00

4 days of happiness ....wont be so happy after all.
=..(
i shall mourn for the fatty bom who have obstructive sleep apnoea leading to cor pulmonale
*sighh*
is obstructive sleep apnoea so important when he is already in heart failure? =(
*sighhh*
luckily the paper wasnt too difficult and i passed my minor posting exams! i did okay when i didnt even put in any effort.. why does it seems like i have to dont care to get better grades?
*sighhhh*
"life's like this...thats the way it is..." Avril Lavigne

should i get the Chanel earrings? so tempted to....hmmpphh...

Granny's 93rd birthday!

2010-03-16T23:15:00.003+08:00

my granny is 93, alive healthy and still super smart! she knows everything that is going on and what has happened in the past. she is still as generous as ever and her favourite hobby is mahjong! she'll come out with many many excuses not to leave the mahjong table. i only started staying with my granny about 4 to 5 years back? she had a fall and fractured her neck of femur. since then, she is staying in my house because there's no one to take care of her in her house.
i'm actually not very close to her because since young i only see her once in two weeks or one month. as for my cousins, they actually stay with her in her house so they are much closer to her than me and my sisters. its funny sometimes we dont have much to talk about because we are not close. whatever it is, she is still my old cheeky granny!! =) Happy Birthday!

My first accident

2010-03-15T20:40:00.002+08:00

In my whole 6 years of driving, this is the first time i actually hit someone's car.

the best thing is i was driving my sister's car! it was raining so heavily and the man infront of me at a T-junction didnt know how to move his car! there were no cars at all, he moved a bit so i thought he left. Just when i turn back after checking once more if there's any car, i realise he was STILL there. omg. i couldn't stop in time and hit his car. he was driving a MYVI. He made me pay him RM 30 for a drop of black paint from my car on his bumper. erghh! luckily my friend was with me! thanks jamie!! she really helped me out a lot that time!! the man wanted RM50 at first. luckily she bargain with him. we didnt get down the car because it was raining so heavily. i thought if the myvi was fine i guess honda city should be fine too right? since its a better car than myvi or i thought it was more tough than myvi from its outer looks.

when i reached my friend's house, i got down the car expecting a small chip of paint from the car. OMG. i nearly fainted when i saw the BIG FAT HUGE dent on the bumper of my sister's car. luckily the workshop man manage to save it and i dont have to change the whole bumper, which will cause me a BIG hole in my already torn pocket.

now the car is fine and my pocket is still fine! =)

get out of my life bitch!

2010-03-14T10:20:00.003+08:00

sometimes people around you can really irritate you like hell! what is their damn problem when people are paying for the dinner and you making a big fuss about it? if you are so clever, PAY for the dinner. blardy bitch only knows how to complain but if i ask you to pay u will blardy hell shut your ugly BIG mouth okay. complaining about the food? you are lucky that we even invited you. do you even know how much each table cost? if u can pay that kind of money then i will let you talk as much as you can until you die. you only knows how to take and dont know how to give. that is probably why you are alone now! good for you. the food is better there? why dont you go there for dinner and not join us? i will be so thankful for that. are you so poor that you dont even get to eat at the other place which i am so bored of eating there already. i really dont understand why do you behave in this way. disgusting. i dont even respect you at all, you disgusting piece of shit!

get out of my life!

hard time

2010-03-02T17:21:00.002+08:00

its semester 9 now, the final year of medical school. i thought everyone enjoys the last year of their university days with their friends. i guess this will be different in medical school. everyone will be so busy with all the work given to us to do and study, we will hardly have anytime left to sleep! lucky for me i started with internal medicine, there's no need to cover ward. next will be gynae! =(

i just want to pass semester 9 and go to semester 10. hopefully i will graduate on time in Feb 2011. i have so many plans to travel around! my sister's wedding is on oct 2010. i hope i will be able to get my dresses and help her with her wedding plans as well even though it might be quite impossible since my sem 9 exams will be in august, about 2 months away from the wedding. omg!

Japan here i come in August after my sem 9 exams. it'll be my last trip with my two sisters alone before my sister gets married. aww...the house will be so different without her. hmmpph. her house is just 5 minutes drive from my house but it'll still be different! i get to use her room as my closet!! *means i get to buy more clothes this year! * big smiles!

i'm so bored. i am suppose to do my TBL. i'm just too lazy to complete it now. medicolegal ethics? can die! =P

it has arrived safely in my hands

2010-02-23T22:51:00.004+08:00

My love has arrived!

*admires the beauty*...=)

my dream bag

2010-01-31T22:14:00.004+08:00

i've always wanted to get a Chanel bag, the Classic Jumbo Black Caviar. every girl should have their very own Chanel bag some time in their life. i guess mine is coming soon and i'm very excited about it! i finally went to the Chanel Boutique in KLCC today. i told myself before that the time that i step in the Chanel shop is when i want to get the bag that i want. So i was so excited today but the bag was out of stock. there are like 10 people on the waiting list and 4 infront of me for the gold hardware one. the rest are waiting for the silver hardware. its such an expensive bag yet such high demand. hmmpphh... i wonder if its a marketing technique to make people think its so exclusive! =P

anyway, life is so exciting now! this week i'll know if i get to win a TV (its Sony 40" Full HD okaY!) hahaha....its just some stupid credit card contest i entered. i hope the Chanel sales girl calls me soon! i cant wait anymoree....waiting is killing me... it feels so near yet so far! the sales girl told me its quite impossible to get it before CNY. how sad. i wanted to have a new bag for CNY. what more my dream bag. =(

look, its so beautiful...owwww.....come to me soon... !

much love all! *life's good*

i deserve one of this!

2010-01-12T17:05:00.003+08:00

i'm going off to Avillion on friday. i really cant wait for the sun, sea and food! although i've heard so much about Avillion, i have never actually been there. the water chalet are quite expensive for a place like Port Dickson! anyway, the working one is paying. so, we took the Premium water Chalet instead of the normal water chalet. its more privacy and a better sea view, but the price is also much nicer. i guess its worth a try. its either "i'll BE BACK!!!" or "i'll NEVER step foot into this place again!"

the lambert's way!

2010-01-12T16:47:00.004+08:00

I was listening to the new Adam Lambert's CD when i realise how talented he is although the cover may be a bit of turn off. his album cover looks like a girl and i can even say it loooks quite pretty! anyway, the whole booklet in his album is filled with pictures of him that are not too good looking as a MAN. my boyfriend even wanted to throw the booklet after seeing it. thats how gay he looked in it.

BUT,

his songs are really good! every single track is good! i love his album so much, i play it everyday in my car although i have other CDs in my car. don't believe me? try downloading his album, no regrets!

everyone keeps talking about him kissing a boy. i mean so what if he kissed a boy?? dont u guys know its a promotional trick??? poor kris allen's new album is not as famous as adam lambert's. why? because everyone talks about adam after the kissing scene and everyone forgets about kris allen! what happened to his new song? no one cares! everyday i only hear adam's songs on fly fm. the more u condemn adam, the more famous he gets! hahaha.....i guess the little show he put on really did work for his career!

Adam Lambert makes my day every single day! =)

2010-01-03T17:03:00.003+08:00

i am sick AGAIN. this is a really good way to end the year and start a new year. i had to stay in bed / house for the whole day again. not fair. not fair. this time i had acute gastroenteritis with diarrhoea and abdominal cramps. very good. pain like hell. i nearly died. i self medicate, did not visit the doctor. i shall be my own doctor first.
what will be next ? UTI or conjunctivitis?? ergh! when will this end. i shall eat bread from now on. see what will happen without any oil in my food.

new year, new life. this year will be a nerd year. i shall study hard for semester 9 and pass it nicely. then pass semester 10 and i'll be done with IMU. i'll be so happy then. i shall go to Korea, Aussie, Japan...and more to be planned.

i dont know what to do with my life to make it happier now. its so dull and filled with infections!!!!

the 3 day holiday

2009-12-25T08:31:00.008+08:00

IMU seriously needs some change in their system. how can there be only holiday on christmas and not for 1 week ! and the blardy exam yesterday had to be so difficult and spoil everyone's holiday mood. kudos to IMU!

i havent opened the anniversary present from the boyfriend until yesterday. at least there was something that cheered me up after a whole long day of nonsense. he bought me the tiffany bracelet that i wanted. it was so so nice. it was new and i saw it while buying a bracelet for my sister. when i saw it i fell in love with it immediately. its very thin beaded bracelet with a love shaped lock. it looks smaller than in the picture but much nicer! i am a happy happy girl now.

my sister went to bangkok for shopping trip and i ask her to get me some stuffs. and i got like 3 skirts, 6 dresses for only Rm250! super cheap !!! and the things are nice! i love it so so much! especially the skirts. i've been wanting to buy them from online blogs but it was kinda price. i even got Christmas present from my sister. and its of my favourite bear! =P

so adorable. but...i need a new cupboard to put them. i guess i'll go to ikea to get one. i love love love to make my own furniture. its so easy and fun. it gives me the sense of accomplishment after finishing it.

much love!

what a life!

2009-12-19T15:56:00.002+08:00

exams are near again! when will all these dumb exams be over! gosh.

everyone are going for holidays here and there enjoying the last few days of 2009.
yet i'm stuck at home studying!

ergh. sister went to bangkok for shopping. mum and dad will go to bangkok for new year celebration, going to sirocco!!!!! ergghh! the dinner for new year's eve is like RM2500 per person !!! y can't i go too?? i wanna go for a RM2500 dinner tooo! not fair not fair!!!!!its all because of the dumb dumb dumb IMU! no holidays for year end!!!! AHHHH!!!

i feel so angry! i have been behaving very very terribly these few days. everything around me seems wrong.. even the blardy old couple at the dim sum place gets on my nerves. i came first and was waiting for the waitress to put my name on the waiting list. then they came and rush in and find the waitress to put their name. wth. no manners at all.! are they so blind that they cant see me waiting at the counter !! some more while waiting they wanna ask people to serve them tea. who the hell he think he is?? i should have serve him toilet water!

i think all these anger is due to lack of REM sleep. i keep dreaming about rubbish things. i dont even know why. why do i have to be killed all the time in my dreams? why do i have to run all the time and still die in the end! erghHH! these dreams are killing me in real life! i couldn't study at all! i keep trying to concentrate and i will fall asleep and dream. when will this end??

i'll get some comfort food later at genji japanese buffet. hopefully it makes me better.

remember remember the 4th of december

2009-12-06T22:51:00.007+08:00

this was the first time in our about 10 years friendship we actually brought all our boyfriend out together for a dinner. the usual thing for us will be girls night out! it was lay ean's birthday that we decided to do something different this year!

me and my pretty ladiesssss!

spot the pairs!=)

oh my oh my....

anniversary SOS!

oh gosh. i have less than 2 weeks till 18th December! panic again! after being with someone for 6 years, getting a gift for that person is getting more and more tough. i wanted to make something special but i don't have any creative ideas yet. i used to be quite creative although my art work always fail!

what should i get for him??? i need some ideas. =(

Juicy Couture love*

2009-12-06T10:57:00.010+08:00

i've ignored my blog for more than a month now! i was just too lazy to blog because i'm just too free for the past one month. blogging is what i do when i'm busy and there's a lot to read up but i'm lazy to do so. weird but true. i'm suppose to read "antibiotics" which have like 253 pages long, read up about HIV pretest counselling and smoking cessation counselling. BUT i'm starting to blog again! haaah...

anyway,

i bought a few items from Juicy Couture and i'm a very proud owner! =) in total i bought like 5 items.
1) a jacket which is navy blue with a "J" zip!

2) a limited edition charm for my juicy charm bracelet. i've abandoned the bracelet long enough. now its time to wear it because i have a new charm to hang on it! =)

3) A bikini set which has very nice bag that comes with it! actually, i love this the most! when will my next trip to the beach be? i wanna go either Krabi or Phuket, just to chill out at the beach. no activities except sipping cocktails by the beach with lots of sunblock! hahaha... i like my skin colour! =P

4) a very nice "hat" , i don't know what they call this type of hat. it looks like a beret but not really one. hmmph.. i can't seem to find the name of it.

5) a pair of cute little socks with little dogs printed on it.

somehow i love the feeling of buying things. guys will never understand how it feels when you just buy a lot of things and be so proud of it. the boyfriend will never understand.

i think i will update my blog very soon! busy times coming up! exams exams exams! hmmpphh! who said semester 8 is honeymoon semester?? big time liars!

much love! *

the annoying fella

2009-10-31T00:32:00.002+08:00

"what size are you? XL or L? As in T-shirt.."

"funny ar you. i'm S okay..if only got two size then buy L la"

"you so fat, sure XL or L la..Aiyo! got different sizes"

"I'm S la. u la XXL. fatty"

"yah i know u are an ass [S]"

"arghh. i dont wana friend u adi. i wanna exercise now!"

"Big S thats y need to exercise"

"whatever. i'm going fridays with my mum n sis now.."

" BS - E =QBS +TGIF =DBBS
BS is Big S, E is exercise, QBS is Quite Big S, DBBS is Damn Bloody Big S
havent buy the t-shirt yet. tmr only buy. cz the fellow say today they need to go back to the factory to custom make for oversized people"

" very funny. i'll smack you. dont like u. booo. anyway, tmr i'll be going for jo's bday in alexis, wont be seeing you."

" BS - E=QBS + TGIF =DBBS + alexis = ? "

" whatever, you are stuck with this DBBS....hahahhaa"

see....how nice my boyfriend treats me.... hmmppphhh.....

my stupid birthday

2009-10-26T11:33:00.002+08:00

i'll be turning 23 this year....23! omg. i feel so old. i dont wanna celebrate this year. it feels so old to be 23!

mum as usual has been asking me what i want for my birthday. i think i should tell her to get me some anti-ageing products! i really wish i could turn back time and be 21! i think 21 is really the best age for any girl, not too old and not too young! sounds good.

what i really want for my birthday??

i really dont have any idea at all. clothes i bought a lot, bags i bought a lot recently, diamonds i already have and i like them very much, shoes i bought plenty till there are so many new ones untouched, i really dont know...

i know what i need though : finish my reports - send me a helping santa to finish it for me pleaseeeee, pass my exams in IMU - i think God needs to give me a little more intelligence...

i feel old. omg. OLD...

the bf is so busy lately with the peace conference. i dont think he even remember that my birthday is coming soon!

i'm just lazy to write my reports....helppp

the year end financial crisis

2009-10-21T11:59:00.002+08:00

everytime when it comes to year end, i'll be spending a lot. this year is a bit different cause i'm already broke to start with.

there's so much i need to spend on :
1. His birthday. Present + dinner
2. Sister's birthday Present
3. Anniversary Present

its so weird that my birthday, his birthday is in November, anniversary in December and Valentines on February! why all the events are so close to one another! ergh.

His Birthday Present - he really likes blackberry , his abandoned cartier watch needs a strap replacement... i need some ideas that are not too expensive so that i can afford it. AHH.... dinner will cost me a bomb too.. =( is there a money fairy in the world?? can you please pay a visit to me??

Sister's birthday, yes, my eldest sister who has really expensive taste. hmmpphh.. this is so so so difficult.

Anniversary, okay, this one i can do something dfferent this year by making something instead of buying. i'm running out of ideas. can someone help me???

Valentines day, its on the first day of CNY! wee... that means i have money coming in! muahahhaha.. so valentines day is not a problem!

i'm really frustrated. i usually have a lot of ideas because i usually have money ! ergghhhh... life is difficult... =(

AHHH i wanna dieee, luckily its holiday time

2009-10-19T18:55:00.006+08:00

i'm not gonna go out...waaaa....i'm damn sad....
i decided to do something different to my hair and the disaster came. i was just playful. i wanted something different. i look so horrible noww..

erghh... my dad say i look like those retarded kid. omg. luckily i still have two weeks before class starts...

i didnt thought it was that bad at first but when i got home, my mum didnt like it, my dad says i look retarded, my sis have no comments. bad bad bad.

i really thought it didnt look so horrible. i took a few pictures and it looked okay but when i see myself in the mirror, its NOTTT.. ergghh...

bye world. i shall hide at home just in case people thought a retarded kid is walking around.

waaa.... grow faster my dear fringe... i love you. i wont do anything to you anymore.

the day i got really angry

2009-10-19T11:22:00.002+08:00

i was on the way to KLCC for shopping on a saturday last week. when we were on Jalan Kuching, there was a sign telling us there will be some traffic up ahead, instead of telling us to take another route, the sign told us to keep right. my sister was driving so we couldn't escape the jam.

anyway thats not the point. the thing that irritates me was IT WAS A STAND STILL jam okay. its so crazy that even an old man walking is even faster than driving. and of all times i had this bad stomach ache! i really need to use the toilet so bad that i was so angry. but i told myself there might be a massive accident or a major road works going on in front.

i tried my best to calm down and just sit there quietly. but when we came to the point where i can see the cause of the jam. i was so freaking angry i feel like killing those blardy idiots who doesn't have a brain!

the whole jam on a saturday morning is due to TREE CUTTING! blardy stupid people! i was so angry i wind down the window and shouted at them ! i shouted all the way as i passed them. never in my life i shouted at these kind of people. its because you wouldn't know what these people will do to you right.

but i did anyway.

it was so stupid to be cutting trees on a saturday morning in KL on the one of the busy street okay. dont these people have brains??!

aih... thats why malaysia is the "most unique" country ever. i believe no other country will do such a thing.

broke. so damn broke.

2009-10-16T00:52:00.002+08:00

broke but happy. yes! i am so happy with the things that i've bought although i am seriously broke! this has never happen to me before. all thanks to the trip to london!
list of things that make me broke :

1. Fendi Bag from taiwan airport. it was what i wanted!
2. Burberry Bag from London. the classic design was too difficult to resist! aiihh
3. Burberry Scarf from London. It was RED! my favourite colour and it was really cold in London u see.
4. BCBG long dress. that was love at first sight! it was too beautiful!
5. Chloe perfume. smells so so good!
6. Aldo Shoes from London. its classic brown in colour!
7. Primark! although its cheap but i bought too many many things from there. ergh! i regret i didnt get those winter clothings!

it was all a need which turned my cc into a bomb.
freaking pounds have to be 5.8! erghh.. if not everything seems so cheap and i wont feel i used so much money!

now, i shall sit home and save money! the bad thing about this is i eat practically everything and anything in the house! and i got a terrible food poisoning due to the greeed! i cant imagine starting semester 8 with those extra kgs i have put on! helppp!

SOS!

off to london

2009-09-10T13:11:00.002+08:00

i'll be leaving to London tomorrow night. it feels so weird because i'm not even prepared. i feel like everything is so fast! so so fast!
hopefully i can adapt there. just 3 weeks. hopefully i get to do some travelling since my posting is for 3 weeks and i'll be there for 3 weeks only. =(
hmmpphh.. i wanna buy some things there but i feel so bad for using so much money! my air ticket itself is so much more expensive because i bought it so last minute.

goshh. i feel guilty.
i'll probably eat less there to save money. hahhaa...

hopefully London will be fun!

till then...

much love all!

i love Fendi!

2009-09-09T10:19:00.005+08:00

before my EOS, i was walking in KLCC with my mum. when i passed Fendi, i realise that i didn't have a Fendi bag! so, i went in and looked around for a bag that i like. i found it ! it was a convertible bag. it is able to be used inside out too with the usual Fendi Logo. i find that bag quite interesting and was wondering if i should get it. it totally slip off my mind during EOS and even after. When i was in Taiwan, before we board the plane to come back to KL, we spend quite some time in their duty free. most of the things there are quite cheap. when my friends was busy getting make up at one of the shops, i saw Fendi from far. it was like 10 minutes before we are suppose to go to the gate. i thought to myself, why now just go in and see how much it cost in Taiwan. when i step my foot in the shop, the first thing i saw was that bag! i went straight to it and ask the sales girl about the price. the price was cheaper than malaysia!! i knew it at that time i should really get it. the problem is i have 5 more minutes and i still have to walk a distance to the gate!

super panic! i told the sales girl i want that bag and i need it fast cause i need to board the plane soon! she was really quick and i paid it with my cc in like 2 minutes?! then she wanted to get me the Fendi paper bag from the store. i told her i cant wait so she gave me the normal duty free bag. Actually i kinda regret for not waiting for the paper bag. It's because every brand that i buy i'll keep one of the paper bag. i've been using it for a few days now and i'm loving it! its so nice !! i love love love it!!!

should i bring it to UK?

yes, no , maybe?

much love all

busy holidays

2009-08-28T16:06:00.003+08:00

my dear holidays, you've come and gone so fast. everyday i have so much to do till i've got no time to even sit down and relax watching tv.
how come?? i've never imagine my holidays like that. i was going up and down for my Selectives ; vaccinations, blood test, CV, airtickets. it sounds like nothing much but i had so much of problem getting it done. then i had to buy a new computer, a new computer table...blablabla...

i officially hate vaccinations. first, i took a Hepatitis B jab on my left arm. it hurts like hell. i MEAN HELL. i was still able to move my arms like usual but it hurts till now. anyway, the second one was the bomb. Meningitis C! ergHH! it doesn't hurt much at first but after a few hours, you'll feel feverish then there will be reduced range of shoulder movement till 0! its something like frozen shoulder. gosh. i cant even lift my hand up till 90 degrees.

blood test. thanks to all the KFCs, hmpph... i guess its predictable that my LDL will be raised. on the bright side, my HDL was high too. =) hahaha..

so much to do, so little time!

tomorrow, i'll be helping Chris to shift to his new house in kemuning then one whole day is gone. i haven't even started packing for taiwan on Sunday yet. gosh.i can't wait for taiwan, then going to London !! woohoo... but only for 3 weeks =( cz Chris cant stay longer and my posting is for 3 weeks. so i practically can't travel around at all. but the bf keep telling me, " i'll bring you back here one day then we can travel all around Europe". i shall believe him first although i don't think it'll happen. =(

taiwan taiwan taiwan taiwannnnn... with my darlings... except one who can't make it... =(

updates after Taiwan!

much love all.

2009-08-22T10:40:00.003+08:00

i've passed my exams! i'll be going to Semester 8!!!!!! yay!

there! the hair is back to the usual colour! no more brown head!

much love all

the little one

2009-08-20T00:41:00.003+08:00

i liked you so much when i first saw you. back then you were so small, shy and cute.

then you've changed to hyperactive and became a destroyer. you chew on my nine west heels that i loved. i wanted to whack you but i didn't. from then on, i never leave my shoes near you, not even those cheap ones.

you started to jump on me everytime you see me or when i'm eating at the dining table. you know who to bully ey.

i always hide from you because you scratch my legs when you jump on me.

you went missing for a while. he was so worried, went around looking for you. you survived outside yourself for more than a week. you were alive.

now, someone decided to take your precious life away just after 1 1/2 years.

the person who poisoned you WILL go to hell. i am very sure of that.

he was so sad when you lie so still there without any movement at all. when i came, you were already covered in your favourite white towel.

i couldn't believe it. i wish i was there to say goodbye. i dont even remember the last time i saw you.

carrying youto put you in the deep hole really hurts. slowly the sand covers you tightly. we won't have the chance to call your name anymore. you will be missed.

i hope you rest in peace.

2009-08-19T10:05:00.003+08:00

for the next few days there will be a lot of THIS kinda "stories" on my blog, how i hate exams, how i hate IMU, how i hate that i'm not smart....

i'm finally back at subang, there are so many things to do :
1. cut and dye my hair
2. shopping for autumn type of jackets
3. meeting VIVIAN LEE! hahaha...miss you girl!
4. scare my boyfriend because he doesn't know that i'm back in Subang
5. watch all the TVB dramas i wanted to watch
6. plan my trip to taiwan, gosh, we dont even have any plans yet.

its so good to be home....the smell of home feels good....

dad is getting a new s! ergghh everytime buy for himself, he just bought a new car like 3 months ago??? one person with 2 cars....iskkkhh... as if he can drive both... hmmPH! he never wanted to get any of us nice cars because he thinks we should work hard and buy our own...like what he does... hmmpph!!! i'm not even working yet!

2009-08-19T00:51:00.002+08:00

how was exams?

i' m sure you did well

you sure pass one

nothing to worry about

erghhh....everyone keeps saying that, i feel like vomiting thinking of the exam itself. exams finally came to an end today at 4pm.

the first paper SAQ, i did so badly which was pretty easy for everyone else i guess.. so many things i know yet i make silly mistakes. my brain usually dont function on exam days.

the second paper was OSPE, even better.. medical school is so fun. we have to practically jump from one seat to another every 5 minutes. how cute. little sheeps getting into their place while the examiner make sures we dont miss any. 5 minutes and there will be a fire alarm thingy coming out. it probably gives you the adrenaline rush or something. i dont even see the point of OSPE.

the third part of the exam was OSCE where they actually test your clinical skills. but why why why why OBESITY??? gosh. i hate that station. i thought i did okay after my first station because when i open the door it was Mr Paul, a very nice surgeon who gives good marks. as i go into more rooms, my confidence level starts to decrease because someone decided to shout at every student. blardy hell. the next day, a baby with heart disease, luckily i was lucky enough to get the diagnosis.. then ortho case, KNEE, i was so happy i did everything but i found nothing but scars, muscle wasting and crepitus.. the crepitus i felt was the same as those undergone total knee replacement. WTH. and the examiner insist the patient has pain in the knee.. i ask the patient and the patient insisted he have NO PAIN AT ALL! hmmpphh....whatever!

now all i have to do is WAIT... wait for friday to see if i make it to semester 8. why did i even end up here? i always ask myself that and i just cant find the answer.

gonna get a haircut tomorrow, stupid bushy dry rotten hair... erghh the sight of you piss me off...

i think i have PMS.

exam crisis

2009-08-07T16:22:00.004+08:00

only 3 days away from the start of my finals for sem 7 and i feel like i dont know anything.

how??! i'm so dead. havent been studying like how i did in bukit jalil. i dont even know what to study. no guide line, no specific thing to study. anything / everything might come out. i don't even know how to study anymore.

how?!

panic panic panic.

i wish life is an alarm, when u pull the panic button, people will come to the rescue.

i was suppose to study everything by tomorrow as planned.

plan FAILED.

i'm not even confident to do the exam anymore.

obstetrics results are out, 3 people passed with a C, others fail??? what could be worse?? psychiatry is no better. i'm gonna take my results only after my last OSCE exam on 18th aug. gosh. and they say internal exams helps us to pass our finals!

BULLSHIT!

end of complaining.

back to some good news.

firstly, my tod's bag has arrived. thanks prof tee. you are the best! will post pictures of it soon.

secondly, my dad's project new launching went very well. visit http://www.beverlyheights.com.my/ its phase 5. if you are interested, please tell me then i'll get the commision from my dad! hahaha....anyway, there's only less than 10 units left after the launch last weekend.

hopefully the next post will be good news too. i just wanna pass... =(

much love!

2009-07-19T18:22:00.001+08:00

i will resume blogging on 18th august 2009.

wish me luck for my finals! =)

i just wanna pass the exam.

love.

the seductive emails

2009-07-09T20:54:00.002+08:00

Victoria Secret keeps sending promotional offer on their sales products since few days back. i was trying to resist the temptation not to buy anything since their shipping rates are so expensive.

hmpphh....i was eyeing this particular red dress which i totally LOVE.. and till today they still have the stock for it...i guess its fated for me..ahahahaha... since i decided to buy one, i was looking through their website and saw this very beautiful dress....its stripe white and red... so i bought it too...then i went to the swim wear part and saw a super HOT swimsuit.... its also RED!

all three items i bought was RED...gosh...i guess i need some luck for my exams huh....hahahaha...

there goes the cc bill...i hope daddy doesn't see it because i won't be spending any money in about a month due to the DUMB DUMB EOS 7 exam....erghh...i feel better today after buying those things....

now, the next excitement is all the way from UK! tee tee gonna go to bicester village!!!! weee..... hopefully her 3G thingy can use... =P

its funny

2009-07-08T20:27:00.001+08:00

2009-07-08T19:16:00.003+08:00

its one of those days when i'm EMOtional. i feel so out of place as if i don't belong anywhere in this world.

i used to think that being a doctor will be one of my biggest achievement in life. look what happened to me. struggling. struggling. struggling.

i guess sometimes people have to know their limits in life. if you are not meant to be, you'll have to go through a tough long way to get where you want to. is it even worth it afterall, going after something that wasn't meant to be yours.

so many people get through everything so easily. what am i even doing? i'm trying so hard to be that someone.

i don't deny i love the job of a doctor. i love it in every way but maybe i just don't have the ability to be one. i'm trying really hard. i hate it when everyone is so judgemental and everything is so subjective.

i really need a good break after Semester 7. i can see the good times coming.

taiwan and hopefully perth!

i am depressed. its been 2 weeks. i havedepressed mood, adhedonia(shopping), hypersomnia, feel worthless, reduced concentration, psychomotor retardation, fatigue.

luckily i dont have suicidal thoughts.

MAJOR DEPRESSIVE EPISODE

kuantan?

2009-06-25T23:23:00.008+08:00

i might be going to Kuantan on Saturday.. it is too sudden, i don't even know what is going on.. he called me today and said, we are going to Kuantan because his dad has somethings to do there and we can all go on a trip.. it all happens too fast, i don't even know if its true..i hope its true though! =P i asked him where will we stay and he said, "hyatt regency".. hmmpph i never had a good impression on hyatt hotels, maybe because i haven't been to one yet.. when i google it just now, i was shocked! it looked so beautiful like its another part of the world...

but if i go....gosh...the amount of work to do and the studying...i'll die...hmmphh...maybe i should study psychiatry on the beach like how those people read books on the beach....hahahah...but i'll be tension there with all the highlighters around....boo!!! he is going to say "i can't believe my girlfriend is such a nerd!! everyday study..." =(

transformers!

2009-06-25T23:16:00.002+08:00

i'm just so lucky...for days i've been trying to log on to the GSC website and i just couldn't get in... i just gave it a try just now and i wsa able to get into the e-ticketing... i thought my chances of getting a nice seat was very slim...who knows! i got a twin seat right at the back for tomorrow! wee....i just can't wait to watch it.. so far, the show has very very good feedbacks...

megan fox is super hot! haha

daddy's present

2009-06-22T22:37:00.003+08:00

hope he likes it....

hong kong goodies

2009-06-22T22:22:00.005+08:00

my sister went to hong kong for her company trip and helped me to buy these babies. She bought a lot more small pooh things but i was lazy to take a picture of it. they are really expensive babies * heartache*. anyway they are so so cute.

the both of them cost me RM250, if it is a bear in malaysia WOC, it'll cost around say RM150??

this one is really sweet, i love the pink shoes and the fur was really soft, its all worth it...

this bear is very unique, don't judge it by its look. it has this bell in it that makes a very unique noise. its not liek the normal noisybell. somehow it sounds very very soothing. i don't know why.

and my pair of new birkens!!!

its black...i love it! so comfortable.. u are going with me to taiwan!

much love!

daddy's day

2009-06-21T11:37:00.002+08:00

he is a playful and bossy man who is now 54 years old. he wakes up at 11am and goes to work at 1pm. yet he always tells me, " you know how difficult it is to make money ar? everyday go shopping only..." but he stills gives me money every week on top of my monthly allowance without saying anything..

he always tells us how he does 2 jobs when he was young driving a proton saga all around town.. he does sales in the morning and sells cassettes in the night.. he sells locks before, lorry trucks till he becomes where he is today.. thats why he always tells us " you all are so lucky that your father gets you all each a car, last time i have to buy my own car with my own money... " hahahaha.... the favourite answer " because now our dad is doing okay so he can afford it mar...=P" hahahaha....

since young, he always bring us for trips to penang, ipoh, malacca for food... i was a stick thin young girl who only loves to sleep and even when it comes to eating time, i'm always sleepy.. i've changed to a girl who loves to eat, and eats a lot. thanks to the training of eating all these years from him.. he always treats me and my sisters like boys.. he make sures we know how to be independent.. he teaches us how to fix the car, how to change a flat tyre...

he is always making lame jokes with everyone, even with the waiter/waitress in the restaurants... he thinks he is so funny but its just lame, but you just can't help laughing.. he alwys comes home late, we dont have dinners together except the weekends... it is like a family thing that we must have dinner together every saturday and sunday..

he is so bossy that everyone have to listen to him.. my mum have to treat him like a king in the house.. every morning my mum have to make sure the nestum drink is there when he wakes up.. make sure both his cars have petrol for him...and much more...

he is just simply tong yun mong...my fatty daddy who has been working hard since young for what we have today, thank you daddy!

Happy Father's Day!!

2009-06-20T09:02:00.002+08:00

OBS is finally a history!! it feels so good to end this tiring posting, looking forward to the psychiatry posting. =P my hands are itchy again... hmmpphh... there's this gucci handphone cover which looks really nice and can fit my phone properly....should i get it??? ergghh *dilemma*

i love david cook - permanent. i miss watching david cook on american idol... =)

fetish for cameras

2009-06-15T20:30:00.004+08:00

i want a big camera, the ones used by professionals. for people who knows me, in my house we have like 4 cameras. one for each sister and i have two. one to be used in seremban and one for KL. i just love cameras. when i saw my sister's friend having the big nice one.. it looks so cool and the pictures that it produces...goodness! so sharp and the colours was so nice!! here's the pictures of me that he took..

so sharp right! i just love that camera... anyone wanna sponsor me!!?!?! my dad will faint if i ask him to buy because i already have two cameras... =P

i WANT big cameraseven though i'm not pro.... haaaa!

exams is on friday yet i'm blogging....i'm freaking useless....

2009-06-13T17:09:00.003+08:00

i'm so sad i lost my tiffany bracelet!!!! i can't seem to find it since last week.. i dont even remember when I last saaw it

Nevermind la, i'll get you a new one okay?

=....( i'm so sad

=) i'll get you a new one....

*feels happy...then, i found my bracelet!!!!!!!! ergghhh....no more new tiffany for me!! boo!*

my housemate's big day!

2009-06-10T22:19:00.004+08:00

its shin ann's birthday at 12am tomorrow....=P *shhh*

its so funny when i went and bought her cake... seremban people are just so funny... anyway, i went to this cake shop to get her a cheesecake since she loves cheesecakes... i wrote on the cake "happy birthday to my lovely houseMATE"....but guess what that lady asked me when i was paying????!!!!!!

in cantonese, "the cake is for your servant is it?"

HAHAHAHAHA

its so so funny. i didnt get the joke till i got into the car. i stop there a while and think " hmmphh why did she asked me that... then i stare at the cake and realise she thought i was writing "houseMAID"

hahahaha

the biggest joke ever!! i couldn't stop laughing all the way when i was driving home...

luckily, it was with the correct spelling on the cake...=P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NG SHIN ANN, my lovely houseMAID!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-09T16:48:00.002+08:00

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent

the engagement party

2009-06-08T19:49:00.011+08:00

The big day was held in Long Bar, One world hotel. It is just a party for my sis and her friends...we just went there for a drink or two. they are really crazy, after we left, there's pole dancing...hahahaha..
anyway, their wedding will be in One World Hotel too... i dont know why they choose there because its not very famous for a 5 star hotel, yet the pricing is the same as other 5 star hotel... its not my wedding so i can't comment much... =P
i cant wait to get my BCBG dress for the wedding!!! it is gonna cost a bomb.....

the new family, the in-laws...wooot

isn't it lovely???

Thats all for now...have to study obstetrics now...BOOOOOO

from kher-yin

2009-06-04T23:06:00.002+08:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: chinese tea
2. Last phone call: chris
3. Last text message: my mummy dearest
4. Last song you listened to: no boundaries - kris allen
5. Last time you cried: Just yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: of course not
7. Been cheated on: erm....not really cheated on...but kinda i guess
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: erm... never kissed anyone except him...
9. Lost someone special: not someone but Benny, my dearest shih tzu, i still miss you my fatty fatty dog...
10. Been depressed: Of course, i'm in obstetrics now...hahahahah
11. Been drunk and threw up: Not drunk but there's projectile vomiting....=P

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Purple
13. Red
14. White

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yes
16. Fallen out of love: No
17. Laughed until you cried: nop, i'm not so extreme
18. Met someone who changed you: NO
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes...always...my piggies and angels
20. Found out someone was talking about you: hmmphhh i'm blur as usual..so i dont know
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: i dont simply kiss people laaa...
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Most of them
23. How many kids do you want?: 2
24. Do you have any pets: Yes, 3 doggies
25. Do you want to change your name:Yes. to Abby or something so that i dont get discriminated based on the first alphabet in my name
26. What did you do for your last birthday: dinner with family and friends
27. What time did you wake up today: 6.15am... stupid obs
28. What were you doing at midnight: sleeping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Taiwann weee...hopefully perth too
30. Last time you saw your Mother: on sunday
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wished that i've gone to australia and done my degree rather than suffering here in seremban doing medicine
32. What are you listening to right now? mad world - adam lambert
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no....tom sounds like a rat....hahaha
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: people who talks nonsense and get praised for that because the one who praised him is stupid
35. Most visited webpage? google
36. Whats your real name: is there a fake name?? i wish i have one ...hmmphh
37. Nicknames: since high school i dont have any.. not gonna reveal the old ones though..=P
38. Relationship Status: in a relationship
39. Zodiac sign:scorpio
40. Male or female?:Female
41. Primary School?: Sri Subang
42. Secondary School?: SMSJ
43. High school/college/university?: Taylors, IMU
44. Hair colour: Brown
45. Long or short:Long
46. Height:164cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: long long time ago...feels like a lifetime
48: What do you like about yourself?: I can eat a lot when i want to
49. Piercings:2 on each ear
51. Righty or lefty:Righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Never had one but have watched many
53. First piercing: hmpph....7???
54. First best friend: my neighbour, ooi ai leen...we used to cycle and climb trees to get saga seeds together...
55. First sport you joined: I HATE SPORTS...but its swimming
56. First vacation: erm long distance was Los Angeles....
58. First pair of trainers: erm..dunnooo

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: nothing but my tummy is filled with crabSSSS
60. Drinking: Water
61. I'm about to: My Case Summary....oppsss
62. Listening to: Always be my baby - David cook
63. Waiting on: finishing my case summary =P

YOUR FUTURE64. Want kids?: erm..now is not the right time to answer this because i'm kinda scared after obs posting
65. Get Married?: of course...i wana buy vera wang wedding gown..=P
66. Career?: Doctor? maybe yes maybe no

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or your eye : Lips
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Younger..i feel old
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud:Loud
74. Hook-up or relationship:Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger:No
77. Drank hard liquor:Yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts: i dont have
79. Sex on first date:No
80. Broken someone's heart: ermm...that was history... i was young and blurr
82. Been arrested:No
83. Turned someone down: Yes
84. Cried when someone died:Yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: No

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yes
87. Miracles: Yes, but it doesnt seem to happen in my life
88. Love at first sight: Yes
89. Heaven:Yes
90. Santa Claus:No...its fake wake up people.....
91. Kiss on the first date: No
92. Angels: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time:No
95. Did you sing today?:Yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody?:No
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: to when i was 5...i was fat and cute back then...everyone likes me...
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: maybe 3 years back when i chose my path....
Are you afraid of falling in love?: No
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: like duh...

2009-05-31T23:55:00.002+08:00

what happened to us?

are we really living in two different worlds?

we dont even understand each other anymore..

HIV

2009-05-28T23:17:00.002+08:00

i've been seeing a few HIV patients lately due to my research.

the first patient was a lady who got infected by her husband who was a drug user. she cried to me, telling me her stories of her life. i was so affected even till now.. she said "I love him, I dont regret that I chose the man I love to be my husband"... that is how strong love can be...

the second patient, a young man who was really young, didn't seem to affect his life, he was a university graduate and now working as a manager. patients infected with HIV do deserve a normal life too. They are no different from us from the outside. a pleasant young man...

the third patient, a technician who speaks very good english. he is a prisoner. the reason for being in prison : taking heroin to increase his appetite after infected with HIV. how true is it, i dont know..

the fourth patient, an old man who lives alone now because his wife infected him with HIV and passed away.. he is all alone..

and many more...

they dont dare to tell people they have HIV not even their relatives or close friends. why? that is because there are so many shallow people around who doesn't know about HIV. most of them dont get good support from their friends and family.. many of them got abandon by their own close families. isn't HIV like any other infective disease like Tuberculosis which is even more infective? why do people discriminate them when they are the ones dying in the most suffering way? some of them are innocent.. they do deserve support from the society..

sigh

2009-05-28T21:52:00.003+08:00

it has been a very hectic week. i've been only sleeping like 6 hours a day? i'm so exhausted. i really need a break after sem 7 exams. i'll be going to taiwan! yay!TAIWAN here i come...wait for me.... and nicky, i want to go to Perth! hopefully i saved enough money to go!! hope you can accomodate me..heee...Kher-yin u are too faraway, i dont think i can survive the flight there.. hahaha... once i've been to LA, i nearly died.hahaha... my airsickness is restricting my holidays...erghhh.. so many places i wanna go! i wanna go to a beach like Krabi or Phuket... i wanna go hong kong too but i've been there before =P

hopefully the bf decided to spend me another holiday, that cost a lot of money and his working time which is so important to him..=P probably not this year, the Bali trip did make him bleed because we spent so much on good food....

Kris Allen's No Boundaries is sticking in my head currently. he is kinda addictive. hmpphh... but ADAM is still the best of the best!

i owe my mummy a lot.. she has done so much for me.... every morning when i go to seremban she'll wake up and make sure my "kakak" put everything into my car for me... comes with me to seremban just to teman me because i was alone on sunday night, make soup for me... aiihh... i feel so guilty... what have i done for my mum??? nothing actually...except treating her on her birthday and mother's day... i'm so useless...

Taken on Mother's Day in Leonardo's, Bangsar...

okay...time to complete my work...its pilling up..."as high as the mountain , so many boundaries between me and my dreams!" =P

life's not good

2009-05-24T12:34:00.002+08:00

i have to go on call this friday when everyone packs their bags and go home in the morning/afternoon! erggh..life can't be any worse when on the same week, sunday i have to go back for weekend call!

at least i passed the clinical exam that i was so scared of and the two MCQ papers which i did so badly but i pass! haaa... but bad news is obstetrics is so tiring and difficult. i feel so lost! everyone seems to know everything and i'm the only LOST one.. not only that, as always i'm so unlucky and i got to be the "victim" of the HOD.... hmmpphh....he is just so weird, the things he do and says.... its so not like a HOD.

i only got to watch american idol during the weekends because there's no time to watch in during the live performance! how sad right. anwya luckily i didnt watch it live or i'll be too angry because adam didnt win. just because he is gay... whats wrong by being gay!!? erghhh....but kris allen did sang the winning song better than adam...the last scene of the finals was so touching when he hugged his wife after singing the winning song... hmmpphh...

MIA

2009-05-16T16:26:00.002+08:00

i guess i will MIA for 5 weeks since its obs posting. have to cover ward! so sad right!
so many pics to upload but i'm too lazy. i should study now actually but the laziness is more than my will power to study...
i hoe i love obs. i think its fun but hopefully i wont change my mind after the posting! =P

American Idol FInals!

2009-05-14T22:14:00.004+08:00

I hated Danny Gokey and he is OUT!! yeah man...OUT!!!!!!

Of course, Adam Lambert will WIN the title unless the americans thinks gay shouldn't win the competition. So what if he is gay, at least he doesn't come out with some sad and tearful story just to get people's sympathy! He rawks every single song he does! With his looks and power voice, i'm sure he'll make it in the music industry sincethe "whole package" thing is so important to sell albums. He can practically do any type of songs he wants! how many of them can do so? I think he deserves the title! songs like "mad world" or "tracks of my tears" by Adam is just so WOW! who the hell knows those songs till he sang it! he kinda reminds me of David Cook doing "billy jean" or "hello"!

Kris Allen, my second favourite, he looks like the plain guy but his voice is really nice too. he is not that predictable, he is fun, but compare to Adam Lambert... hmmpphh...He doesn't seem to convince anyone he can win him. But we will never know! he might just surprise us with something he comes out with! i love his version of "heartless" and "ain't no sunshine".

Lastly, the one that got kicked out! Danny Gokey! he doesn't even deserve 3rd place. i think Alison deserve it more! anyway still im happy he is not in the finals. i hate it when people comes with a sad story, act so into christianity just to get votes. if u are a true christian, u dont have to show it so much. you are what you are! his songs are so predictable. always slow at the start then shouting at the mid part till end. he doesn't have much excitement! just plain boring. luckily we wont be seeing him anymore! YAY! plus his looks is "cannot make it!" he can never survive in the music world! shoo shoo!

i just can't help it, i have to draw him a bit! hahahahahhahaa...i know i'm evil!

"seremban-less" week!

2009-05-12T11:56:00.010+08:00

i've got one week at home! a very short break after 2 postings in semester 7 yet, the big ass exam is coming soon. it pressures me to study yet i can't get myself to sit still and study. i'm so gonna regret for not studying and end up blaming myself for this! ergghh...please give me the strength / will power to take the book up and read it!

anyway, i love my home so much. my bed feels so comfortable and nice, my dogs are so amusing, my mum always nags but she loves me, my pooh bears looks so cute, my cupboard looks so FULL of clothes till it'll burst... hahaha...

being home is just too good to be true. always pampered by everyone.

this is the real chicken essence made by my mummy dearest! the whole chicken had to be wasted just to get such small bowl of soup!

enjoying every bit of it!!!

the wasted chicken!

flowers by the bf. when we were eating in PJ, some people just came up to everyone and was selling flowers! so he bought for me. hmmphh. it goes to the toilet again!

and doughnuts too! hee... the bf bought it for me after my exams! however, i think these doughnuts are not as nice as those i've tasted overseas. the dough is a bit hard, not as soft as it was suppose to be... =( a BIG disappointment.

i love shopping spreee!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is just so stress-relieving!!!!!!!! i actually bought all these stuffs from midvalley.. i usually dont get much stuffs from there but... its just the shopping luck day i guess! =P

tomorrow is ferragamo pre-SALE day! KLCC here i come!!!!!

i LOVE MY HOME!!

facebook EEG for the microcephaly me!

2009-05-07T07:48:00.006+08:00

they can read whats on my mind!!! isn't that EEG! my microcephaly brain can think so much at a time? incredible!

depression

2009-05-06T13:23:00.003+08:00

i feel so stupid...
i dont think i pass my exam today..
i hate it... i dont wanna fail!
i was so hardworking for peads! erggghhh
i hope he pass me...
but...
he told the rest they passed but he didnt tell me...
=....(
i guess its bad news afterall... hmmpphhh

*emo*

the driver

2009-05-02T20:55:00.002+08:00

this is the second time i drove the alphard, my dad's new toy... i get to reverse park it in the shopping mall... power eh! hahahaha...

i'm stressed up... forgive me....

i hope i dont fail paeds! please... i'm trying to study yet its just so difficult to enter my brain! i think i have microcephaly....=(

miss independent

2009-04-26T17:53:00.001+08:00

i guess i'm just to used to relying on you on certain things.
i will NOT from now on.

i can live without you.

i'm not bulletproof

2009-04-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

this is the last time i'm gonna be sad.

tell me why?

2009-04-21T23:41:00.003+08:00

I took a chance,
I took a shot
And you might think
I'm bulletproof but I'm not
You took a swing,
I took it hard

And down here from the ground,
I see who you are
I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you love me then you cut me down

And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around

And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?

You could write a book on how
To ruin someone's perfect day
Well, I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I'm trying to say, oh

Why do you have to make me feel small
So you can feel whole inside?
Why do you have to put down my dreams
So you're the only thing on my mind?

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you want me then cut me down
I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I've got no one to believe in

You ask me for my love then you push me around

I take a step back, let you go
I told you I'm not bulletproof
Now you know

-taylor swift rawks!-

our little cave

2009-04-20T22:30:00.012+08:00

me and chris went to this place called "the cave". i've read reviews about it long time ago but i just didnt try it. it sounds nice and pictures were good in the blogs that reviewed this restaurant. since saturday is the 18th, the boyfriend and i decided to go for a nice dinner just the two of us. as usual i'm the one who makes the decision since he only knows hotel food. he doesnt have taste buds - thats my conclusion. something wrong with this boyfirend of mine, he thinks only expensive food are good. hmmpph. its so NOT true.

anyway, we went to watch "he's just not that into you" at one utama. the show was funny ! i kinda like the way the story goes, nicely done. however, its a girl's show but its kinda nice to watch with the boyfriend also! =P *I bet he didnt enjoy it*

then, we went for dinner. the cave restaurant is just too unique. they have a cave for each couple! plus the place really looks like a cave with comfy sofas to sit on. it is like a private room for dining privately with your love one. i find the whole concept of the shop so unique! plus, they'll come and serve us by just a button away!

thats the curtain closing the opening of our little cave!

the menu!

see, really looks like a real cave right? i love it!

he loves me!

this is their "trio mushroom" soup. three different type of mushroom in it. quite interesting but its not the best mushroom soup i've tasted so far.

his carbonara. nothing interesting, just the same old plain carbonara.

hmmpphh....people with good taste tends to choose good food! hahaha... i present to you the duo chicken! half wetern chicken chop, half japanese chicken maki! yumM!

the desert...cheesecake... i couldn't finish it. what a waste!

he loves me so much *hahaha*

much love all!

i wanna be an investigator!

2009-04-11T18:51:00.005+08:00

today, a crime happened in front of my house. some teenagers stole bags from MPSJ where a school sports day was held. there were 3 of them hanging outside my house for about half an hour. my mum even saw them but she couldn't recognise their face. too bad.

hee hee

thats not the interesting part, a few years back, for our safety, my dad installed a CCTV outside my house. its not that we were that rich but it was because of some other reasons. anyway, thats not the highlight here. for a few years, we knew our CCTV works, just that we never bother much about it. so today, finally it came to some use.

so the story starts here. my mum and sis came home at 1130am, saw 3 guys hanging around somewhere near our cars. then, when my mum went out for lunch with ehr friends at 1215pm, she saw a camera case lying next to her car and a few bags underneath my sisters car. so she went to the guard house and ask the guard to go and have a look what is that. then, when we came back from lunch, we found out that there were few kids reporting lost of bags.

total loss was RM5000. so poor thing right. their handphones and camera was gone. reminds me of my camera. i still CURSE YOU BLARDY BASTARD! you know who you are!

so i decided i wanna find out who stole the poor child's things. we went home and play back our CCTV video. caught them on screen. crime was from 1145 till 1205! the video was able to see the 3 boys but their face were quite blur because they knew we had CCTV so they hide their face. i think police will come soon to investigate cause the bags were found near opposite our house! faster mr policeman come tomorrow! i'm so excited. hopefully they come before i go back to seremban. erghhh..i dont wanna miss the fun!

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i LOVE being home during weekends. everytime i go out of the house, i get to be myself. i love to dress up, call me fashionista or whatever it is, i love fashion. however, in seremban it is very difficult. sleep is more important than anything else! seremban is making my complexion from bad to worse. now, i can't even use my blusher thanks to the pimples. ergghh...

much love all!

kids are a mess

2009-04-07T21:45:00.002+08:00

its only my second day in paeds and i'm feeling so tensed up, eating like crazy. its so hard to get history from the kids and also examining them. takes so much of time to convince them. it was so much easier with adults. i dont like paeds, ortho was so much more fun! gosh, how i miss ortho now...

i went to pasar malam today which so near my house. yes, after 7 months staying here this is my first time there. so much of food. so full, fat and tired!!! big belly coming out...opppsss....

house in seremban is in a mess. total mess. crazy mess. needs a lot of cleaning. thursday is our spring cleaning day!

KRISPY KREME is coming to town!!!!

2009-04-06T17:19:00.003+08:00

woooohoooooooo..... yummy doughnuts is on its way flying to malaysia. a big THANK YOU to Berjaya group for making my dream come true! i can't wait already.. i hope they open as soon as possible.... some more it'll be open in Berjaya Times Square, my dear fatty has an outlet there and goes there quite often....muahahahhahaa....he shall buy me doughnuts every week!!!!!!!!!yummy yummy yummy!!!!!! my fav, lemon filled, choco iced custar filled!!! ouhh...so happy!!!!!!!!!!!! life's good in malaysia.... i'm loving it!

check this out http://www.krispykreme.com.my/store_locator.html

this is the happiest news of the DAY! i love you, Tan Sri Dato' Seri Vincent Tan Chee Yioun. you made a wise decision! hahahhahahaa

Seremban the shoe killer

2009-04-05T12:44:00.002+08:00

after just 7 months in seremban, 3 pairs of shoes have to go into the dustbin. that shows how much of walking i actually do there! and trust me the degree of the shoe injury is really bad like an open fracture =P

since i have the weekend off, there goes the shopping. i ended up buying only 1 pair of shoe instead of my target of at least 5 pairs. i bought many other stuffs like skirt, pants, dress, tops and pooh bear instead. i really regret not buying more charles and keith from singapore because all i bought was heels which i dont get to wear to hospital. grrr.

the funny thing is there are so many shoes that i have which i dont remember having. so in the end i found 2 pairs of potential shoes to be used in seremban. so total i have 3 pairs for seremban, hopefully it'll last till end of semester 7!

should i cut fringe like "real straight fringe"?? hmmphh...

bones are gone, here comes the kids!

2009-04-03T16:26:00.002+08:00

Orthopaedics exam was one shocking exam. Not only my examiner changed on that day itself, it was a long long day. I was so tired last night, tried my best to sleep but palpitations keep coming around 5 am tillthe next morning. Just when i was about to fall asleep, calls keep coming in beacuse examiners are not there yet. Luckily, today is my last day as the group leader. gosh. with much relieve. i was so nervous and i'm the last again. ergghh, thats because of the blardy alphabet discrimination! i had this since i was young. i'll always have to sit at the sides of the class for exams, have to do my exam last. Quarantine dring A Levels, and now, IMU. always the same old story arranging us by alphabets!

i shall change my name NOW! i want my name to start with the middle letters like H or L or something! ergh.

anyway, about the examiner. first i got this really scary everyone-sees-everyone-run examiner but he was unable to take us for exams because he has something on. whoa. big relief. then another lecturer was suppose to take us. He is very nice but usually nice lecturers are not so generous in marks. so there goes the tension again but when we found out this morning our examiner has changed to smeone who is well known that he is super nice! lucky us in ward 4B but the exam got delayed. why? because the examiner takes a long time for one person.

so as the last person on the list, i was suppose to end at 12pm but i ended at 2pm!!!!! i was starving, thirsty, tired, frustrated....and lastly....no feelings at all during and after my exam. i was so numb. i dont feel happy/sad/angry/hungry/thirsty....all the hard work during ortho i'm not sure if it is worth it... i hope it pays off...

i was lucky today to get a really nice patient. he was so friendly with me! he and his wife is so sweet! the way they tease each other, the way he compliments her after she left, the way he tells me how thankful he is to have her.... *speechless* not many married man are like that. how sweet... =)

now now now... i'm gonna start with paeds.. everyone seems to like that posting... for me, i'm not to keen because kids are really difficult to handle. more over having them as your patient, extra difficult!!! i have to go and buy some rattles and sugus..hahah...thats the advice i got from my other friends who just ended their paeds posting...

till then....

he rawks!

2009-03-28T12:27:00.001+08:00

Marley and Me

2009-03-28T10:02:00.004+08:00

This show was better than what i expected since hardly anyone talks about how good it is. I don't know why it wasn't a big hit but i feel it is really a good movie. Especially for dog lovers(Jamie, you should really watch it). It is so so funny at the start the way the naughty dog was messing around everywhere in the house. The ending, was just too much... i cried like crazy!

there's the clearance puppy! he is $100 cheaper than the rest of the dog....why????

yeah..thats why...he is a destroyer!!!

but he is still so cute....

Fatty Daddy's Day

2009-03-21T16:41:00.014+08:00

today is my fatty daddy's birthday but he is on his way to china for a business trip with BUSINESS class seat...ergghhhh....how come i never get to travel i business class!!! unfair.....booohoooo

anyway we went to Latest Recipe in Le Meridien for buffet dinner yesterday. My dad is the typical Chinaman who doesn't like fine dining. So, its either buffet or Chinese food. thats the only 2 choices for his birthday. he has never tried the buffet in Le Meridien, which i think it is very very nice....so we brought him there and he loved it! =)

as usual, my dad will always make some lame jokes and tease my mum... =P

thats my fatty daddy

We are FAMILY! one big happy family...!

sister and her going to be husband!

mummy and sister

me and chris, somehow i look like i just woke up...

this picture is much better!=P

okay...the guilt starts here...below are only "some" of the food i ate....not even half of it... i feel so guilty but not to the extend that i'll be bulemic.. i hate going on diet... i just can't diet for more than 2 days... diet plan always FAIL... can someone teach me how to diet? i'm growing like a ball...and its not even funny... double chin is on its way now... erghhh gross!

i love my chiffon dress! i'm loving it! its so comfortable! =P

much love all!

i want a sweet escape, fly with me

2009-03-18T23:12:00.002+08:00

i really want to fly to another world where emotions like "stress, worry, sad, heartborken...etc " does not exist!

am i being too negative in life that makes my life sucks even more? what can i say when i'm seeing so many unfortunate people around me. there's nothing that i can wish more to have in life yet there's a feeling of wanting more.

greed. a word that can kill many.

i wish i could "delete" the negative-ness in me by just pressing a button.

Part 2

2009-03-15T10:25:00.014+08:00

After a long day of travelling, we went back to hotel and bathe to refresh ourself. travelling is really tiring but no regrets.
while waiting for our driver to pick us up for dinner, we went to hang out at the poolside...

this is the comfortable seat the hotel provide at the pool side...they even serve cocktails!

Then, we went to this famous place called Jimbaran bay aka money-sucking-seafood-restaurants with beautiful view! The place is really beautiful where we sat and watch sunset sipping on coconut juice and delicious fresh seafood. However, the dinner was expensive yet some what worth it for the view and services they provide us. The weird thing was, all the waiter there thought i was japanese and keep talking to me in jap. though i understand what they were saying but "hello, i'm CHINESE okay....proud of that!" haaha

See, the beautiful view of the restaurant...

The coconut was really big, i could hardly finish it. one word - delicious!

Me and the beautiful view of Jimbaran Bay.

the tiny lobster that cost a bomb!it was delicious though!!

i was just playing with my camera settings but everyone think i was drunk.. ergghhh....

we are F-A-T-T-Y s! round fat and proud of that!

i'll try my best to blog all about Bali soon... if i have the time!

much love all!!

the sweet escape

2009-03-03T17:06:00.029+08:00

Bali 25th February 2009. Part 1.

Our second day there was really hectic. We hired a driver for RM130 a day to take us around Bali. We went to a few places which is quite far like 1 to 2 hours journey there. Sitting in the car seeing the life of people in Bali makes me jealous. They have time to do what they want, even though it is a simple life but they are having a happy one. I know that after this holiday i won't get anymore of easy life that they are having.

Anyway, back to the journey, first stop was to Uluwatu Temple. It was a very nice place with very naughty monkeys! the monkeys will steal things from you and will only return it to you if you have food like bananas or rambutans with you. So, i took most of my jewelery our before going in. However, Chris can't take out his specs! haha.....*psss....his power is 900* So, he bought 3 packets of rambutan to make sure he gets his specs back if the monkey takes it. it was so funny the way he was walking and was so conscious about his specs! =P

This was before we enter to the monkey zone, just outside Uluwatu Temple area. Most of the temples here have the same type of pillar at the gate.

He was trying out the camera and i pop out just to be in the picture with him!

i guess i'm too fat to be in this picture! i covered most of the view behind! ergghh

Here, i think sitting is better, at least can see the sea is so blue!

See, the naughty monkey that ran so fast towards Chris and he didn't even notice. He snatch the pack of rambutans from his hands and sit aside enjoying it...hahaha, how smart of him. He doesn't even need a hostage, he just took the money!

How beautiful, you'll never see this in Malaysia. However, the place was too hot! so we didn't stay long. Just took a few pictures and left. that was one of the reason but the most important reason is that Chris was kinda worried he lose his specs which he'll be blind if he loses it!

When there's a beautiful place for picture to be taken, i'll definately be there! =P forgive me, orthopedics has been giving me a big headache! i'm so stressed and actually i'm giving up my sleeping time for this post...

Greedy greedy monkey who wants both rambutan and egg!!! i think he loves half boiled egg since the weather is so hot, the egg will be half cooked.. good taste monkey!

Then, we went to this sacred monkey forest in a place called Ubud. This place was kinda different from the one just now because the monkeys here are really tame. they don't steal or come near humans. They will just do whatever they are doing and just ignore us.

Even though they are tame but i'm still a bit afraid of them at first. how would you know if they won't just decide to jump on me and scratch me right?

So cute right!

Hence,

MONKEY SEE MONKEY DO! =P

i can;t even remember why i was acting that way...

Then it started raining just after we finish walking. so lucky we found the restaurant my sister recommended us to go to. its called bebek bengil. it is famous for its duck..

The girl drinks the Big bottle but....

the boy drinks the small! hahaha..

okay, this is the deep fried duck that taste so good.... can die... i love it so muchhhh

too bad he doesn't eat duck...what a waste, so he just ate some weird Balinese Fried rice....hahaha

In our little hut where we spent quite sometime there due to the rain.

Guess what this is the Ubud Palace. its a lousy place to go but if you want to buy souvenirs there's a lot at the nearby Ubud market..there's a lot of things to buy but all super over priced...

thats the half of our second day, part 2 will be up soon...probably the weekends... i'm too busy in this ortho posting because i'm the leader... erggghh....

the best sentence i got today " ortho is like that, always have a lot of changes in timetable"....ergghh that means more work for me....AHHHHH

much love all !

Our secret valentine

2009-03-01T21:44:00.017+08:00

Bali, 24th february 2009.
our first day in Bali.
we took an afternoon flight but it was delayed a bit so we reached there at 7pm. Bali's airport looks like the old Subang Airport that i've been when i was young. it looks old, kinda rundown, without nice duty free shops. it was a 3 hour flight to Bali, one thing about booking airasia is you must book air asia planes with flight number starting from "AK" because then the planes are newer and bigger. i didn't expect a 3 hour flight, i thought it was a 1 1/2 hour flight. gosh. luckily i was too excited my airsickness wasn't so bad. we bought the express boarding pass so we get to sit in front with a lot of space in front for our legs!

the dumbo who used up all my handphone battery playing stupid warfare game! ergghhh....every night i have to charge it!

see take picture with me still wanna play....erghhh...

at last, we reached the beautiful hotel of ours.... a deluxe room with king size bed and just 5 steps away from the swmming pool! woohhoo

everyone is a millionaire in Indonesia...hahaha

see, the door to swmming pool! i swim there most of the nights....good exercise....i love the pool!

the bed.....so comfortable. they use quilt covers and not those cheap with and brown blankets....

then we took a taxi to the famous "Made's Warung" in Kuta which was only 5 minutes away from our hotel. the food there is very nice! it was such a good way to start our Bali trip! We were too hungry so we ordered 2 dishes each... ended up with a big bloated stomach and dragging our feets walking around Kuta.

The traditional interior design of the restaurant.

The glorious food. it cost us about Rm70 for the food above. The Pork Satay, *slurrpppsss* too delicious, no words could explain it...

the boyfriend and i, both fat, full and happy..

After dinner, we walked around Kuta because they have many many small shops selling all sorts of things, from tourist things to fake branded stuffs like Polo ralph lauren to burberry to louis vuitton.. The one thing i was so curious about is why would someone pay RM70-100 for a fake polo t shirt? its FAKE even though they will tell u stories about it being produced locally... when you touch the quality of the Polo T-shirt, it is so thin and rough... i don't wear but both my sisters love them and have a few of the original ones which cost about RM300-400... so many tourist thinks that it is real and bought it just like that... so unbelievable, they have so many many shops all over bali...

Guess what caught my eye??? KFC baybehh....hahaha....the KFC there is so modern and nice! too bad i was too full to go in there for a meal...

he was too full .....

me with the outside view of our room! how beautiful right.... i love this hotel!

thats all for day 1... more updates will come soon!

much love all!

slumdog vs button

2009-02-22T01:53:00.007+08:00

the curious case of benjamin button... there's nothing much to be curious about the show at all... it was predictable and the love story wasn't so touching as i thought it would be... the plot of the whole story is so copycat...if u had watched titanic, you would understand... its exactly the same, an old lady dying in hospital talking back about her love story... the ending was so predictable and there were nothing exciting or sad or happy about the movie...it doesn't make your heart skip a beat... however, one thing i like about this film is i'm amazed by how they make brad pitt so old ugly and small and suddenly so young handsome and tall! =) he is too good looking...at least there is something to look at in the movie...the girl is so not pretty, too bad for the guys...

from this ugly thing to....

whoaa....super duper handsome!

slumdog millionaire was so good that there were tears, laughter and excitement in the movie...i find the movie really very interesting... the way they told the story and link it to his answers was so good... and in the show there were real life stories about things going on in India... the small boys were so adorable! i like that part he actually jumped into a pile of shit just to see his idol...amitabh bhacan! and his brother was so evil to just sold it for 2 coins... ergghh! anyway, its a must watch movie!

the small boy is so cute, Jamal Malik

the happy ending!

sorry sorry sorry

2009-02-20T10:59:00.002+08:00

i just wanna say sorry to all my friends especially to my angels, jamie nicky and kher-yin...

i feel so so bad after reading jamie's blog for the first time today... i'm sorry for not knowing whats going on... which is already the past....

clinical school has been really harsh on me and i feel that my time for people i love around me is so limited that i feel i've been abandoning you all...i hope i can have more time for everyone around me....so sorry for neglecting you all....

please forgive me.....

*a very beautiful drawing , by Jamie Lai*

much love all!

shopping?

2009-02-19T18:10:00.020+08:00

who says there's no sale in singapore after chinese new year! hahaha....everyone keep telling me that..but when i went there, every single shop was on sale!! its called the "post CNY sale"!!! hahahaa...of course, the shopping queen does come home satisfied...

i stayed at my cousin's place in Jurong, transport was easy but just a little time consuming compare to staying in orchard.. the room was big and was able to fit the 3 of us... plus, it feels like home, i didn't had any difficulty sleeping at all... my cousin have a cute baby girl who is going to turn 2 soon, she is kaitlyn ma yu rui... i still find her name really very very special... especially if u call her chinese name " xiao rei rei".....

okay back to the trip, the first day we spend the whole day in orchard road...i bought 3 pooh bears, my very very beautiful BCBG dress!!!! weeee, 1 slipper and 1 gladiator shoe! we had lunch in crystal jade kitchen which was supose to be very famous in Singapore... then we went to chinatown for dinner which was quite disappointing...

then the second day we went to the zoo.. hahaha.... its because my cousin has a card that allows free entry for 4 adults... so to the zoo we go! had ben and jerry's ice cream there...freaking expensive... but super good ...=P

then we went to ding tai fung for lunch which was really famous for their "xiao lung pao"....its really nice...but i still prefer dragon i...sorry!

after that we went to bugis street which was a small flea market...things were cheap compare to the last time i went there...

then we went to sim lim square to buy the blackberry bold for my sister, valentines gift for her boyfriend...how nice! *guilty* i didn't get chirs anything at all.....errmmm....i'll make it up to him in Bali...i'm planning to treat him a nice dinner there! =P

then we went to tony romas for dinner...baby back ribs was jsut too good to be true...*yumm yumm* i love it.*

the next day, we went to vivo city and city hall mall to buy...all the shoes form charles and keith!!! there was a massive sale!!!! hence, the compulsive shopping....

then we went for a dinner with my cousin and her family...plus my another cousin who is also working in singapore came along... we had dinner in tung luk restaurant in Clarke Quay... it was chinese fine dining....freaking expensive but it was nice....

then we went to marina barrack to see the singapore flyer..."to see" not going up...hahaha....even though i love ferris wheel but this one....not too safe!! there was once people got stuck in there for 6 hours... not a good idea to try my luck since i'm super *lucky*...

taaaddaaaaa....purple ferris wheeL!

then the next day we headed home and had some fun in Changi Airport.... baby kaitlyn cried when we left....awww..... but she's coming over in april!!! i can't wait!!!

much love all!

Chuck Bass

2009-02-09T18:32:00.003+08:00

i love chuck bass so so much..ever since the first time i watched gossip girls!!

and i've been watching season 2 for the past few days, which makes me even more into him!

he looks so super whooper good in season 2....gosh...

and the way he talks, any girl would melt!!! ergghh....

he is just so attractive!

ahhhhh!

a series of unfortunate events

2009-02-08T09:53:00.002+08:00

it all started on 5th february, the day of my exam...

1st event - my ID tag fell into the toilet bowl before my exam...how did it happen? i seriously don't know...it is in a plastic attach to my landyard, it slip through the top if the plastic and fell in the toilet... i was so panic that i felt like a drama queen that time...

2nd event - my pants tore a bit at the side of my thighs....*yes! also on exam day*

3rd event - i forgot to bring my past year papers back home to prepare for tuesday's exam, which is so important....

4th event - i lost my anklet!! the white gold anklet chris gave me on our second Valentines day together! and i cried badly.... i don't even realise when i lost it.... its someting money can't buy!!

i'm such a lucky person...aren't i?

i hope good luck comes to me soon....i really miss my anklet....i love it so much....even after so many years, thats my best Valentines day present...

beautifully broken

2009-02-07T18:11:00.003+08:00

from false hopes to disappointments,

every bit of it i was taken for granted...

i'm not weak for being sad...i'm sad because i trusted you...
i thought i was important, afterall, i'm just the last on your list....

i just wanna go home

2009-02-04T19:27:00.005+08:00

i don't know why i'm acting like a small child being in kindergarden for the first time.. all i want to do now is just be home in my upper living room sofa and watch american idol, eating all my favourite cookies, laughing with my mum and sisters, teasing my dad, my fav hobby...teasing my dad....=P playing with my bambee and bullying rex, laughing at stupid things he does...

i just wanna be at home...

i can't study..
i don't have the mood to do so...
i'm so failing my family medicine OSCE, the last group highest was B+...
that doesn't even change my mind to study harder....

i guess its the one week break that i had for CNY... i haven't been home for 1 week since like 6 months ago? thats why i'm behaving like its the first week in Seremban...

i hope friday comes faster... i'm depressed... and my immune system is low...stupid dry cough...i think i'm having tuberculosis..probably haemoptysis will come soon...but there's no WEIGHT LOSS!! grrrrr

whatever...i'm sick...

Seremban Syndrome

2009-02-03T15:56:00.002+08:00

symptoms: lethargy, increase sleeping hours, polyphagia, "frozen time", feeling hopeless, depression.

signs : obesity, dull facial expression

Investigation : clinical diagnosis

Treatment : leave Seremban and go home...

...exam stress....not because there's too much to study....its because i don't know what to study....=(

10th february

2009-01-29T17:22:00.002+08:00

i can't wait for my exams to be over! that is because the fun begins theN! haha...
singapore shopping from 11th -14th...
then its valentines dinner on 14th
then its bali 24th -28th!!

can't wait can't wait.....

Happy Chinese New Year!

2009-01-29T17:03:00.009+08:00

CNy this year is slightly different from the usual ones because my house is filled with babies!!

there were 4 of them compare to none last year! all of them are just so cute and fat! although they are cute, i don't really know how to deal with babies...i just think that they are too fragile..its nice to look at but not carrying them around! its really scary!

anyway, exams will be after CNY but i'm just dreaming away.. reports are 75% done which is due next week plus a clinical exam, a paper exam and CFCS presentation!!! ergghh...all together next week... so dead.... i'm so in the CNY mood that i'm so lazy to get my ass off the sofa to study...i just keep eating and adding on the fats that i've already have.....

ang paos this year is good too....even though crisis is kinda coming...i think the angpaos will only shrink next year...ahahaha....hopefully not...i love angpaos...

a must for CNY....ABALONE.....heeee..

ya its as big as my palm...i was shocked when i saw it....thats because every year all i see is the ones that were already sliced into pieces....ahhahaa

CNY goodies....

i present to u the cutest baby....tong wai kit!

Miss Eva ! she's very very funny!!

and the chinese mix thai baby, ming tin! he loves rex too!

hahaha...decorated by yours truly! =P

its a nice combination right!

much love all!

i officially hate air asia

2009-01-22T16:31:00.002+08:00

stupid airline...stuPID!!!!! ergghhh.....i so susah payah book the blardy flight and i thought it was cheap! now....its so freaking CHEAP! its only RM400 like that....grrr...i bought at RM969!!!!! i so wanan kill them....such idiots....Money Cheating Company.....whatever, take the extra RM500 for you to build your blardy grave !!! ergghhhhhh

unexpected gifts...

2009-01-19T16:53:00.003+08:00

the boyfriend bought me 2 expensive gifts for no reason! its not even our anniversary or a special day or anything.

the first was 2 weeks ago, he bought me a Daniel Yam's Dress which is really nice and expensive! he said he was in pavilion and so happen saw that dress which he thinks it'll look good on me.. so he bought... *curious*

last week, he bought me a pair of oxford-type of shoes from Zara... again i was shocked... he never buy me gifts so frequent like that... then the curiousity increases...

obviously girls would think "hmmpphh...maybe he did something wrong...."

so i tease him about doing something wrong thats why he is buying me all these things...
and the innocently-wanted-to-be-romantic-boyfriend's heart was broken....he was so sad because he did all these just because i simply tease him for not being romantic anymore, not giving me surprises...*which i forgot all about it till he mentioned it*

hahaha....sometimes i'm just a lousy girlfriend...i guess it is quite difficult to please me...

=P

good things rushing in

2009-01-12T21:36:00.003+08:00

some engagement coming up soon!!
woooweeee.....guess who....
hahahaha...*ssshhhh*

can't wait for it! heeeee.....

my dream

2009-01-12T21:29:00.002+08:00

i wanna be a toy designer.

or whatever u call it...
i wanna design my own winnie the poohs, i wanna make them so cute that no one would be able to keep their hands off them especially kids!

i wish i'm graduating this year, to do what i want to do...is it even possible?

why can't people have their own dream, though it sounds ridiculous?
i shall make my dream come true one day...
i WILL..

I AM GOING TO BALI!

2009-01-10T17:38:00.002+08:00

at last the trip to bali is confirmed!! i'm so so happy... *big smiles*
going to have a romantic and happy valentines this year with chris!
i wish the trip is tomorrow....i can't wait already...ergghhh

i wanna go to BALI!!

2009-01-01T19:23:00.002+08:00

i'm so freaking frustrated now....what a way to start a year!
Chris wanted to bring me to Bali in February as a valentines day present. So i went to Air Asia's website and book with his card. The stupid thing keep telling me there's an error when i press "payment"... then i tried a few times but i still couldn't get!!! i haev to book by 2nd January because they are having a promotion...

Then, i tried using my credit card instead because i thought his was new and never bought anything online before... i tried a few times with my card too...it still shows error!!!!
then, i went for lunch at 2 and left my handphone at home....Citibank called me and tell me that the payment went through!i was happy so i called chris...guess what!!! it went through using his card toO!!! * panic *

i quickily called Air Asia but they told me both the credit cards that i gave them did not make a payment and there was no transection that went through!!!!! ergghhhh.....*stress*
i called the bank back again and they keep telling me that i paid and the blardy transection went through!

"am i paying for NOTHING???"

i called citibank again and they told me to wait 5-7 days because then they'll know if the transection really went through!!!

how am i suppose to book in time if it didn't go through!!!!

i was so frustrated, i called citibank again, now, they are telling me that the money is FLOATING! because they make the stupid payment but air asia did not take it....so the money is FLOATING!!! floating where???in the toilet bowl arrr??!!!!AHHHHHH!!!!! its a freaking RM2137 okay..... my mind keep thinking of the amount only...ergghhhh

maybank was so much better, just one call and they told Chris that the payment won't be make because he paid but airasia didn't take it....so the transection will be cancelled soon...

anyway...i think....

all my dreams of going to bali is GONE! i even planned what to wear for each day alreadYY!!! how cruel....

now...i don't know what to do.....i'm depressed....

Happy Holidays!

2008-12-26T16:40:00.004+08:00

for the first time i actually feel so so happy during Christmas... the holidays of 5 days is like a rare holiday we get in clinical school.... i wonder why they are so stingy with holidays... hmmpphh...

anyway, i went to Avanti, Sunway Hotel during Christmas Eve for dinner... Seriously, the service was so so horrible... i think it is due to lack of staffs... we had to wait half and hour just to order our food and wine... gosh...and the dinner took us like 4 hours just to finish the set dinner...

The live band was just okay... but i did had a great time with chris there before i actually got drunk... erggghh!

my alcohol treshold is so low that i probably can't even take any alcohol!!! i drank like only 2 glasses of white wine and i was already drunk...*drunk = vomiting + dizziness + just wanna sleep!

even a bottle of beer will make me drunk!!! i'm such a lousy drinker...

shopping today was super good!!! i bought so so much of things...heee.....daddy is gonna be shocked....since i hardly bought anything last few months when i had depression in clinical school...=P

To all my dear friends,

Happy Holidays!!!

Love!

brown head

2008-12-21T12:55:00.003+08:00

for the first time, my hair is exposed to hair dye. =) i just wanted something different this time.

it still looks too brown now.. but the hairstylist told me it'll be darker brown in 2 weeks...i shall wait and see... hee

much love all!

Happy birthday Jamie dear!

2008-12-14T19:42:00.003+08:00

its jamie's big day! 14th december.. this time she'll be celebrating with her other half in UK or Paris? hmmpphh....how sweet!

anyway, this is to jamie,

"i'm so so sorry, your birthday card is still in my car. i'm such a hopeless friend. i wanted to send u a card early this month. Due to card stuck at home when i'm in seremban and then forgetting when i went home during the weekend and silly me went to seremban again! luckily this weekend i remembered....erghhh... now its in my car but i'll be having exams soon in 4 days...i'll send as soon as possible okay dear....so sorryy!!!"

love !

i wanna be free

2008-12-14T19:21:00.003+08:00

"i feel like i'm tied up in some place that i don't wanna be. i just don't think i belong here. life's so short, why should i waste mine like that?" -- i've been thinking hard, is this the life i want?

i don't know.

i need some answers.

i'm running out of time... the clock is ticking, what have i achieved in life? i can only say...nothing, nothing at all...

fatty?

2008-12-06T23:10:00.002+08:00

Staying in Seremban seriously made me put on so much of weight which i didn't even notice. everyone around me keep telling me and teasing me about it. it makes me feel even more cautious about my weight. since young, hardly anyone will tease me for being fat because i was so thin like a stick. My weight has been increasing but NEVER decrease in anytime of my life at all! BUT i wasn't fat till now.

all i can say is, "i feel fat, but i feel hungry even more"

it is actually due to the amount of outside food and fast food i ate all the time in seremban. even though i used to eat KFC every week last time, that was without other fast food or outside food. i've always love home cooked food that is why i'm always eating at home. of course, KFC was an exception. =P

i must lose weight!

I MUST lose weight!

I MUST LOSE WEIGHT!

how can that be possible when my exams are just around the corner? i'll eat without noticing when i'm studying! ergghhh....plus, i've never gone on a DIET before... i need help, i don't have the will power or experience to do that.. Losing weight has never came into my life till today..

i feel fat...a fat fatty girl....

not loved!

a little night out

2008-12-04T19:29:00.014+08:00

me, the bf and his family went to PD last weekend just for a short break. I had a great time because i haven't been sleeping so well since long long time. thanks to the alcohol, i slept so much and like a pig. We stayed at guoman beach resort, a very nice and romantic place. =)

but as always, great times end fast...

our big fat feet!

ergghhh i look so short here... bad photography skills!

love.

the BIG ass margarita..

poison rose. the live band was good.

bye bye guoman...

much love all!

twilight

2008-11-30T09:46:00.004+08:00

if u haven't watch it, please GO and watch it...you'll never regret it. the movie was just too good to be true... its even better if u are watching it with ur other half... too bad he wasn't there when i watch it... =(

The Best Movie i've watch in year 2008!!

yeah...seriously that good.. and the guy is super good looking... *ahem* even guys like him.. =)

anyway the story is about this vampire who fell in love with a girl...he would do anything to protect her... he claims she is his own brand of heroine.... !!!

so good looking right.....

much love all!

i want to be an animal

2008-11-29T18:05:00.003+08:00

Monkeys in Japan are getting a new job....

guess what??

waiter in a restaurant.....

shocked???

what makes me angry is they only work a blardy 2 hours a day!!! and its a law to protect them from over working....ergggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why are doctors job worse than an animal? or even foreign workers that does construction???

this is madness.....

the government should reduce doctor's working time....

how i wish by the time i graduate there's no more on call!!!!
more over, doctor's always make mistake when they are tired...they are humans too....

whatever

2008-11-25T18:07:00.002+08:00

it doesn't make sense why life is like that...
some people just love to take from people
not willing to make a sacrifice for their own living...
this makes me sick

if your wallet tells u u can't afford something
it means U CAN'T afford it
find your own ways to get it
not by taking from people

just simply plain lacking of common sense....

Happy Birthday to .....ME! with piggies

2008-11-25T17:53:00.008+08:00

This was on 8th November , one day before my official birthday.... we went to souled out.. the cake was good, the company was good, had a great time there... although there are some *funny* moments which i can't mention here, only the piggies knows...=P

They make me wear this super ugly hat that i didn't even take a look at when they put it on my head. i only know it is super ugly...hahhaa....when i saw it on the pictures...i was *Speechless*...

i was kinda tipsy that day, thanks to the port... i can't drink much but i drank 1 full glass that night... my liver wasn't helping me enough!!! ergghhh...

much love all!

mini CEX

2008-11-19T18:49:00.002+08:00

just had my small, so called mini exam today. as usual i'm always so so nervous i just think i could have done better. this time was different because the lecturer doesn't scare me or ask me questions that are not found in the book. he is a funny nice man. so i'll have to study more now to make sure i don't disappoint him on the real exam! =) and the best thing is, he is a blogger!! hahaha... anyway will update pictures for my birthday soon.. since i didn't get to do so lately because i was just too lazyy....ergghh.....i've got the lazy syndrome...

love!

birthday gift came early

2008-11-07T00:37:00.005+08:00

my precious stone...... the only thing thats makes me happy now....after all the bad things that has happened to me....i hope things will change after my birthday.....for the better...

my only wish

2008-11-04T19:42:00.002+08:00

my birthday is just around the corner, yet, i don't feel excited or happy like i USED to... i used to get excited and find the perfect dress for my birthday, places to go for nice dinner with my family... i guess this year is a bit different, my birthday doesn't seem to mean anything to me anymore... am i grown up thats why i don't give a damn? or am i just too disappointed with life??

.........

my only wish for this year is that me and all my friends do well in whatever they are doing...*all the best people*....

with love,

wai teng